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Yes i have finally posted some pictures of my self on my page thingy go for it look at them, it took alot for me to post them because I hate them.

I know you don't want to hear this now, or maybe you do need to hear it???? But you don't look like you weigh 250 pounds.  Not at all.   You are a beautiful girl.  I have to say that youth does wonders for us, huh?  I can't attest to it anymore because I looked every ounce of 350 pounds, plus!!!  But when I was younger I carried my weight very well.

Maybe your breaking point comes at a good time?  I think the mystery of why you ate is in the carbs you ate.  You know enough about nutrition at this point to know that carbs make you even hungrier than anything!!!  I know what that feels like, better than anyone. I guess I'll just lay it on the line and tell you something you already know, and have heard a thousand times.  Get it under control now!!!!!!  Don't wait until you are 40 years old like so many of us where our bodies are rebelling against changing the status quo.  I feel lucky that I did it at 40, now I can enjoy the rest of what is.   Do it while your body still loves you!!!!  You are such a beautiful vibrant girl.  You deserve to enjoy your life without the weight that really seems to affect the way you live it.   Look at it this way.  You say that you haven't always been overweight.  Take this time to exorcise all those food demons that really haven't had a long time to get ingrained in your head.  Don't do it 16 years down the road like I did, when all my issues were so much a part of me. good luck!!!

Thank you Donna. Yea I know I carry my weight well. Which I am happy about that. I just keep trying t get this under control so I can live the rest of my life while i am young!

Hey again Christa, You know something, I was thinking about you last night and I was thinking about the "goal" you set for yourself.  Maybe right now 135 is too low for you.  You said you were comfortable at 170 or 180.  Perhaps that is your weight.  I better than anyone know what goal weight means.  I have NEVER been in my target range.  Like you I am athletic and played softball from the time I was 9.  I was on a traveling softball team.  I played catcher (thank you for the big thighs).  I looked absolutely FANTASTIC at 190.  I was actually thin.  Nobody in the world would have called me fat at that weight.  So even though I am at 230 now I was 350+, so this is a great weight for me.  My "range" weight tops out at 167.  What does THAT tell you?  If I was looking at my target rate as established by some insurance chart, I'd constantly be depressed. Perhaps adjusting, like Neecee said, and realizing that maybe it's only 50 or so pounds you need to lose to get to a healthy and doable weight for you, would work. Just a thought! In the end you do what you need to do to feel comfortable and happy.

Amen to everything DonnaMarie told you.  Christa...you have a light in you,. my dear. You are LUCKY that your goal weight could be...who knows, maybe should be 200# and be a drop dead fox. You are seriously gorgeous now at this weight.   I keep harping on you..stay away from fast food...all of it. Save it for a treat that you eat with others...no exceptions to this. Once a month okay...maybe twice. Eat it with people.   I hope that you will store the awful feeling of how that last binge made you feel physically.  Try very hard to bring that memory up when you pick up the phone or your keys to go get more fast food. Call somebody...i am giving you my cell number ( CA is two hours ealrier than you, so even if later on, i may have it on still!)  If I don't pick up, leave me a message that you are at least stopping for one minute to think thru to the regret part...where you see your body on the floor of your bathroom, crying and in pain. If you carry thru, so be it, but at least you may begin to think thru your decisions more often until you are successful more often!  My last thought, cook nice meals for yourself..not diet food, either at least a few nights a week.  This way you will not feel deprived where you perceive that you need the fast food action.  You are young, and eating regular meals with plenty of fruits& veggies will burn off lots quicker than it will for me as a fat old lady who has whupped her body for too long. Do not try to always eat the low cal ****it can be a enemy when you cannot stick to it.  Eat normally...easier said than done, i know. I think you are brilliant to be dealing with this head on now while you have an awesome chance to break it now.  i was like 30 before I tried to get a handle on it.  A LOT of damage had been done.  Good for you, sweetie!

Thank you Neecee. I appreciate it. I will stay away from the fast food. I went grocery shopping last night. I bought alot of fruit and veggies with fruit dip and veggie dip both light but seriously the fruit dip tastes like frosting haha. And I bought some deli meat because I am a sandwich person. Also peanut butter and jelly I like those too and they're not too bad as a diet goes. Oh and nachos I love nachos, so I bought some baked scoops, some cheese, some light sour cream, black beans and tomatoes. So I am content with that. And ofcourse i have chicken I always have chicken on hand. I am having a hard time too because it's coming to the TOM and I get uncontrolable, honestly I think I have PMDD. I haven't been diagnosed but I know I have it. My cravings are insane, and I am very emotional I cried because my brother wouldn't let me get on the computer last night COME ON! Normally I could give a **** and I am so mean right now like I have the worst attitude, so the next time I go to the good ol doctor I am going to ask about it maybe he can give me something because I am out of control.  I am glad I am trying to get a hold of things while i am young. One of these days I will be down to 200 pounds, I was happy at 200 pounds that was a size 18 possibly 16 and damnit I looked good. But I would be happiest at 170 so I am changing my goal weight to 170 because 145 is unrealistic and too thin for me. 170 I feel happy. Even 175. Ok I am feeling better. Last night I got hit on which you know me, getting hit on means the world to me, like make up and tanning lol. I was going thru the drive thru..I only got a diet pop!!!! lol But I was sitting there and the girl handed me a medium I'm like uh I orderd a large shes like oh...so she hands me a large and was like oh Im sorry and the guy behind her who was black says girl she did that for me I wanted to admire you some more...I laughed, which I like black guys I like any guys, white, black, mexican...He's like stay there so I can keep looking at you..I laughed as I drove away and he's like WAIT wait....I looked like crap! I had my hair in a pony tail with a head band and no make up! So that made me feel 10x better haha. Shoulda gave him my number he was pretty attractive.  I am going to change my ticker...I gained weight and going to change the goal weight. Like starting over. I can do this DAMNIT!!!

You look great babe!! Don't be so hard on yourself!  Got my eyes on you girl!! W00tee w000! 

Hey Christa you look GREAT!!!!  What a beautiful young lady you are.  Donna is right, I would never have thought you weighed 250lbs, you carry it so well.  

Thanks guys, I will have to find a picture of me when I was at my thinner weight and show you the difference. :)

Hey Christa girl, You are definitely your own worse critic, cuz you are cute girl.  I agree with the others and I'm glad you changed your goal weight because you don't look that big to me.  Yes, you will look even cuter once you lose some, but don't fool yourself young lady, you are very attractive right now, this second.  Like the others said, try to stay away from those bad carbs, cuz the more you eat em, the more you crave them.  And, they are also so right about getting your weight under control while you are young, cuz trust me it only gets harder the older you get.  Try not to be so down on yourself all the time.  Be proud of yourself during each step of your journey, you don't have to wait until you reach that final destination.  Smell the roses as you go.