ever had one of those days?
Today I had a relatively healthy day in several aspects, not just with food.
However, I dealt myself a side dish of body dismorphic disorder.
These days are few and far between, but when they hit, it makes a girl feel like a sausage stuffed in a casing. I am not sure how many of you can relate, but if you can.. you get it...
Snugglepotomus
Hi snug...not sure i really do get it, but certainly i have had a distorted body image most of my life. Now that I am 50 years old, i don't trip on it so much. My peers who may have never had it now are starting to get it! LOL. I'm used to it now!
I am a recovering bulimic, have years of OA behind me to have helped me thru my youth, where for me, it was hard to love my body. i was always bigger than everyone around me. Not fat, as I now see in pictures of myself as a kid, tall, blossomed out early.
It didn't help that i was 4 years older than my sibs, and my next youngest sis was like underweight most of her life. We have pics of her wearing the very same dress in kindergarten as her school picture in 4th grade! Seriously she did not grow much at all. As an adult, she is only 5 feet tall! me, in 5th grade was as tall as I am now (5'4") and pushing 150#. I'm one of the taller ones in the back row there with the big hair!
I try to push those ugly, I am not lovable feelings aside when they pop up. I remind myself I do "try". i exercise most days, make good food decisions most days, I am kind, loving against odds most days. I fix my hair, put on make-up, buy and wear attractive clothes, learn new things.
My words to you would be: once in a while, these feelings have a purpose. Are YOU trying as hard as you can in many areas of your life? or feeling sorry and laying back in tears on the bed/couch everyday and folding down just cuz you blew one meal or two? Check yourself once in a while to admit it to yourself if not here to us, people who have been there or are there now. We care about you!
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