Hi there -- HELP!

Hey everyone!  I haven't posted for a couple of months, but I have been checking up on you guys to stay in the loop.  I think the last time I posted I had just joined LA Weightloss, and there was some discussion about their plan and whatnot.  Well, things haven't quite gone as well as I had hoped.  After I had been on the program for about 5 weeks (and lost 10 pounds, but gained 6 of it back), my dad died very unexpectedly.  I had been in Laughlin, NV for a day-trip when I got the call and flew out of Vegas within 2 hours.  I didn't have a thing with me except the clothes on my back and some cash.  Needless to say, it was an extremely emotional time for me and I got COMPLETELY off plan - - big surprise.  Anyway, it's been a month since then and I never really got back on plan.  Sure, I went in for my weigh ins 3X a week - I just didn't lose.  In fact, I'm back at my starting weight of 281.  I gave a lot of excuses and "reasons" for my failure, and I lied on my food diary so the counselors wouldn't know exactly how bad I was really doing.  This type of behavior happens every time I try to lose weight.  I'll do pretty good (sometimes even great) for about 6 to 10 weeks.  Then something will happen (I'll get sick, take a vacation, my dad dies . . . ) and I'll go off the plan and never get back, plus I usually end up adding about 10 more pounds to what I started with.   Well . . . this time I actually went back to LA Weightloss and confessed everything.  I feel really good that I made the choice to change my previous bad habit of giving up.  Only, now (less than 1 week after going back on plan) I'm having trouble again.  I overdo on my starches; I don't get all of my vegatables; I don't take all of my vitamins and supplements; and I'm not getting enough water!!  Why the hell do I do this??  I need this to work - - I need to get off my ass is what I need!!  But I need some help.  Can I ask you OHers to monitor me??  Check on me and reign me in when I get out of control?  I can be honest with y'all - - I think that's because I don't have to look into anyone's eyes when I'm online and feel more free to share than I do in person.  Weird!  I don't know what I need, I just know that what I'm doing now and what I've done before isn't working - - and it's my fault.  I am this close to getting that home equity loan for the GBS so I'll be forced to eat a certain way and so I can see results faster - thus be motivated.  Help!  Please?? Sonja

Sorry to read about your loss.......darling I think we have a been there with you one way or another.....quit kicking yourself too hard..... Now that you have confessed and taken us to task you are definitely heading in the right direction! Come back and post often it will help and we will help in anyway we can via this forum

Hey! I'm starting back too (weight loss that is). I did LA for about 5 months in 2005 and lost 30lbs I never got down to goal and never did maintenance and thus gained it all back PLUS. I think it worked for me because it was so strict. Have you tried menu planning? It helped me to know exactly what I was going to eat that day and then didn't eat anything else (not even a taste). Eating Lean Cuisines one meal a day helped me too. Crystal Light is my friend. It helps get in all the water that I need. Good luck to you! We're all on this journey together!

My suggestion is that you try Overeaters Anonymous.  You have the support of your sponsor (once you choose one), plus the group, and also, your Higher Power will help you keep on track.  It works for me, and I am a Weigh****cher and LA Weight Loss drop out. Denise Phares

Sonja, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss.  I understand how such a huge loss can derail not only your new health plan, but also your life.  Grieving and going through the stages can take time and sometimes a person loses ones self to it.  I've been there.  I was losing weight in a good stride when I lost my mom unexpectantly.  After the initial couple of days, I started eating and hadn't really stopped until recently.  I'm here if you ever want to talk. Now stop beating yourself up about falling off the wagon.  It's happened and now you can just move on.  You should be proud of yourself for confessing to LA Weightloss and going back.  Also, you came back to this forum, another thing you should be proud of.   Post often and let us know what's going on.  We'll be there to help and cheer you on every step of the way. Melinda

We would love to help you as much as we can.  Post any time you have an issue and we'll be there.

oh babydoll! wow, grief on top of it all. Truly bad news about your dad.  You "do that" with your food plan because you are human, trying to learn a totally new way of life. Trust me, there is not one person here who struggles with it all somehow.  It may be the plan you are trying..i don't know too much about it, it may not be for you.  Keep looking...or give that one a fair shake. No speeches from me about to thine ownself be true - you know that. You may only let yourself down if the promises are too big - it may be for you that you should change small things and re-teach how to eat "normal".  These things take time, my dear!

Maybe try posting on the abstinence thread every day and we can make comments (if you want that), or otherwise, consider it a public post and you will be able to see what you did that day, and read other people's for ideas. It helps me to fearlessly post even my "bad" things. You know we'll help you all we can.

Neecee:  Can you explain how the Abstinence thread works?  It looks to me that Kitties4 is the main contributor (mostly the only one).  And, abstinence from what??  Thanks! Sonja

Thank you everyone for the super support and great tips!!  I knew I could count on OH friends to keep me in line and tell me like it is.  Thanks again and I will absolutely be sure to keep in touch!

Sonja