Confessions of a chicken killer

I thought it was best to post this and hold myself accoutable. I screwed up last night after eating sensibly during breakfast and lunch.  I had an interview at 4:30  yesterday. I ended up not getting back in my town till around 6pm and I was starving! I missed my 3:30 snack. Just forgot about it. Anyways, at 6pm I was starving. I kept drinking water to control it but I was just plain hungry and I didn't want to wait.  I started craving hot wings and I tried to fight it off but I couldn't. So I called the house and asked the nephew what kind he wanted.  Called Wing Zone and said the worst thing I could say, "What kinda specials y'all got going today?"  Of course, being as hungry as I was, I picked the biggest bang for my buck.   I got the 25 wing special that comes with 2 orders of celery, 2 ranch dressings, and a extra large order of fry wedges. I got 15 Nuclear Flavored and 10 Cajun. I like them hot so I got the nuclear and he got the Cajun. I took about small handful of his fries cuz I wanted to try them and headed to the couch trying to convince myself I was only going to eat 6 of them.  After I barely got the 15th one down I reached for my celery and finished it off too. Also had both of the ranch dips.  Oh god I was miserable too. My stomach was soooooooooo full.  Eventually the pain went away and I slept like a baby. This morning, omg I'm hating myself.  Talk about IBS.   Using calorieking.com I compared to 15 wings from Zaxby's with their nuclear sauce and the fixings I had and I came up with about 2104 calories.  I'm not surprised and in fact I expected it to be this much or more.   The sad thing is this was a normal meal for me before. I'm thankful that this puts me in extreme pain now. At least I know I've made progress.  Lesson learned though.  I cannot be trusted near a restaurant when I am hungry. I should only go out to eat when I'm in the right frame of mind.  Hot wings are a trigger food. If I'm going to eat them then I should only prepare or order what I should eat, not how much I want to eat. I'm not going to stress over this meal because it was a lesson learned. I am angry at myself for eating it but it was a learning experience.

Sweetie.....unfortunately for you it is like taking a kid down the toy aisle in Wal-Mart and not expecting them to want anything Eat good today (all day that is) and repent for you should forgive yourself

You did good, Chris, with how much you learned from this experience.  I'm proud of you.

Julie - grab the shock collar....we're gonna need it!  The many avenues we will take til we find our way with this, Chris!  My promise to you is that one day you will bypass all the guilt and not do certain things as much anymore. Your decision making will get more honed as you go. You'll do the "right" thing more often. I am not sitting here promising I will never dive into a bucket o wings meslef! Hey, i have to go with DH to the London style fried fish place once in a while, don't think that is not a train wreck of a meal. I just try to stave him off and the gaps between those visits are wider now!

Chris, The lessons you learned about yourself and your habits was worth every single one of those calories!!! You should be amazingly proud of yourself.  This is the accountability I was talking about.  Meet it head on, take responsibility for it, learn from it , and move on!!!! When we get that hungry there is nothing reasonable that can be done, sadly!!! Good for you.  Baby steps, that's all it takes.

Thanks everyone!  Let's just hope I can commit the lesson to memory so the next time this happens I don't go haywire!  It worked last night!  I had my tops meeting and I postponed dinner so I could weigh-in.  I lost 5.75 pounds from the previous week according to their scales, part of it was clothes though!  So anyways, I ate very little all day yesterday, basically starved myself so I would have a somewhat empty stomach.  When I got home I did really good. The wife made hotdogs and baked onion rings.  I only had two dogs with chili and 3 onion rings. Not the most healthiest meal but that's what I get when I'm in a rush I guess.  I'm guessing the day was less than 2000 calories but I'm not positive about dinner.  Breakfast - 100 calories (2 rice cakes) Snack - 100 Calories Granola Lunch - 220 calories (single serving packet of hamburger helper stuff, yechy, but it was all I had) Snack - 100 calories lornadunes or whatever those are called. Snack - Got home to grab some clothes to change into and the wife bought snickers..uh oh, but I only had 1. bite sized.  2 were a serving for 160 calories but I only ate 80 calories worth. It tasted like sweet heaven too! Dinner - 830 or so calories for  2 hot dogs on white wheat bread, 1.5 tbsp real mayo, <1 serving ketchup and 5 tbsp chili.  I'm not sure how many calories were in the baked onion rings.  I only had 3 so I'm guessing it's less than 500. I'll settle for calling a 1250 calorie meal. Guestimate for the day 1770 - 1850 calories.