WTH? It snowed in Alabama last night.
My (supposedly) best friend decided to wait until this week to have a bipolar episode and scream at me like we are teenagers, of course I had to run and try to protect her as well. Now, she has another friend calling to see if I'm mad at her (once again like she's 15).
Anyway, it takes alot of energy to be her friend and at this exhaustion level, I'm not sure I'm able.
Sorry about rambling, I guess I just needed to vent, and I missed you guys since I haven't been able to log on during the day, and too tired to in the evening........hope everyone has a beautiful Easter weekend.
Angie 10/4/07 surgery 265, 11/7/07 1st fill 252, 12/27/07 2nd fill 243, 1/16/08 234, 2/27/08 3rd fill 230, 5/18/08 209, 6/12/08 home scale 200!!!!!!!!!!! 10/22/08 1 yr......184, 11/4/08.....170, Pouch dilation in April 10, complete unfill. Starting over! 7/29/10-175 
i hear you on the WTF. there was actually snow buildup on the cars parked outside this morning in DC. crazy. i have been feeling very out of sorts lately and i don't think the waether is helping! i've been feeling so BLAH about exercise lately - there is friend i met on OH on the plastic surgery board who i go walking with sometimes which helps when i don't feel like doing the gym. but is too darn cold out . i've also had a terrible time sleeping lately - last night i had all these weird nightmares involving my plastic surgeon. in one of them he was like i'm not going to suck any more out of your thighs, you just need to lose more weight. it made me sad. sorry to hear about your friend. bipolar disorder is a terrible illness.
Thanks for the support and calming words. I love my friend very much, but it feels as though I always have to be the adult and make her feel better. Well I have two teen-aged daughters so I do enough of that already. I know I'm being ridicilious being upset at her, but she was screaming, you are not my friend, it is over, etc. Well, after 5 years of putting a great deal of time and effort into maintaining this relationship (she is a very awesome person 95% of the time), it hurts my feelings to be told that I don't care.
I have spent time researching her disorder so I could be more supportive and help her when she needs it, but then on the other hand when I need support it seems as if she is unavailable or she has an episode that upstages anything I do, or accomplishment I acheive.
I feel as if this was triggered because I got this new job, which is more time consuming than the prior one, and with my new plan to lose weight and exercise I haven't been available at her beck and call. I refuse to give up my plan to accomadate her, my life and my health are too important to give up now.
I guess really my feelings are hurt more than I am angry, and I know I should call her, but at this point I'm afraid I would say something insensitive like how she needs to grow up, which wouldn't help anything. I have left the decision up to her, either she can pick up the phone and talk to me (not go thru a mutual friend), or get in the car and come and talk to me while she's sober, or not. I'm too exhausted to try to pacify her this morning. Thanks fopr letting me vent.
Happy Easter!!!!!!
Angie 10/4/07 surgery 265, 11/7/07 1st fill 252, 12/27/07 2nd fill 243, 1/16/08 234, 2/27/08 3rd fill 230, 5/18/08 209, 6/12/08 home scale 200!!!!!!!!!!! 10/22/08 1 yr......184, 11/4/08.....170, Pouch dilation in April 10, complete unfill. Starting over! 7/29/10-175
