Fell off track....venting....

Ok so I am about to vent to all of you. Because you are all so wonderful and I feel like I can. This is the only site I can actually say how feel about all this. Ok, so I "was" down 5.5lbs. Well not anymore. I gained 2 pounds back....blah.  Well I fell totally off track.  Saturday, Sunday, and yesterday. Oh I totally gave in. Fast food each day! It is almost "that time" of the month. And I have these horrible craving like that take over my mind. Seriously, I am literally addicted to food like it is a drug. Like even when I tell myself "No Christa, you will regret eating it" I still do! I have totally fallen off the program! The staff at MWLC doesn't know that because I lie in my journal! *sigh* So today I'm not going to weigh in, I will tomorrow and what not. But today and tomorrow I'm just going to liquify myself lol. And work out extra hard at the gym, kinda of like "start over" So I am gonna be drinking LOTS of water with lemon, and I have some "fiber" jello from MWLC, which Jello is basically liquid kind of just a little jiggly, and tea with lemon, because I LOVE tea. And maybe I can get rid of those 2 pounds and be back on track and follow my program like I'm supposed then I can do the losers dance  Thank you for letting me vent! ---Christa

been here!  You read my profile - then you know I'm a recovering bulimic. I've been down this road and beyond to a very sick place. One thing i would suggest is track your food anyway - even on your worst days.  I have been surprised the damage is not *that* bad sometimes, but however I feel, it's a good way to face off with it and eventually accept your choice. AND to do better.  have you checked out fitday.com? There's a sister site called dietfacts.com that will drop fast food and a multitude of store foods into fitday.  All these times we fall from the wagon really do teach us something, because we might, one of these days, really *see* what we are doing - it's no different from an abusive boyfriend scene:  perhaps you know of the cycle of abuse  - major issue (yelling, hitting, etc), apology, regret, honeymoon period, then one day right back to scene I.  I know you can do this.

Yea I read that. I really have a problem and I feel like I can't get off of it, usually I can follow for a week, then I start going down that other road back to where I was just like the abusive cycle. It's a big circle and I cant keep straight. For the life of me. I'm having a horribly hard time. I will have to check out the sites, thank you!

Heya,      Most of us have "patterns" for what causes us to stray from our good intentions, so identify what those weaks spots are for you and try to change your environment to prevent them.  I know that fast food places are the kiss of death for me unless I'm well into good habits and have stronger resistance built up.  So I would suggest not entering any fast food restuarant for the next 2-3 weeks.      Also, try to make your food journal accurate.  They can't help you fix what you don't acknowledge.  Don't feel guilty...this isn't just you...it's all of us.  None of us eat perfectly all the time, so try to own up to bad choices, release any guilt, and just get positive about today and tomorrow.  If you look back through some of my posts, you'll see at least one binge day/week for pretty much every month since I completely lost it on Halloween. LOL

See I think another problem of mine is....I live alone, all by myself. When I am at home I get bored and want to turn to food and I'm a binge eater, I wont stop until I'm literally going to be sick.  Usually I go to the gym and go tanning but then I'm back at home.....what else can I do to stay away from Bordem? Plus, Julie what time to you get up in the morning and what time do you normally go to bed? And do you work out everyday? What do you usually do when you work out? Just curious to get some ideas. I usually go to the gym and do the eliptical machine for about 20- 30 minutes and walk on the tredmill for about anywhere from 15-30 minutes.

Hiya,

     I'm also a boredom eater.  If I feel illogical cravings coming on, I'll quickly find something else to do...chug water, jump on the treadmill, lie out in the sun with a book, run errands, sit down and pay bills, spend way too much time on OH :-)...anything to keep myself busy.  I fall into the binge category as well generally going to the point till I'm nauseous, in pain, and lying in bed.  It doesn't usually get to the point of throwing up cause I learned my limits very young.  (I was having binge episodes way back into preschool, and it didn't taken too many episodes on throwing up at an early age to learn what the breaking point was.)      As for time, I get up at 5:00 every morning cause I have to get 3 kids ready for school, and I read the boards while I'm doing it. LOL  Back when I was still working as a surgical PA, I had to get up at 4:00 every morning in order to have an hour to chug some water and then treadmill before doing the rest of my stuff.  But I am a morning person...I get cranky if people keep me up too late at night.  My preference is to be asleep by 9:00pm, but hubby's a night owl and tends to keep waking me up off and on often till midnight.  It's one of the main sources of conflict between us.  Sleep deprivation causes weight retention/gain, so I get pretty cranky if he does it too many nights in a row.      Working out is an everyday thing for me.  Cardio is the key to fat loss, and it keeps your metabolism running when you subject it to calorie deficits (also suppresses appetite).  Otherwise, your metabolism slows and droppping fat becomes more difficult.  At home I have a treadmill.  So every day I'm on it for about 50-55 minutes.  I carry 3# hand weights the whole time and do arm exercises (my upper arms are awful skin-wise).  A couple times a week I go to the gym and use things I don't have at home...the elliptical, the recumbent bike, the upright bike, and the weight machines.  (I do have a Bowflex at home in my bedroom, but it seems to function primarily as a clothes rack. LOL)  But you definitely have to build slowly...once something starts to become less of a challenge, only then increase the intensity, time, or frequency.     Calculate your target heart rate % and make sure you keep it there during your cardio.  (That's how you'll know when to make your cardio harder.)  The bare minimum you want to hit each week for calories out in the form of cardio exercise is 2,000.  (I typically do about 3,450 in a week.)  The main thing about diet/exercise plans is to personalize them.  What is perfect for me may not be for someone else.  That's why I always tried to get very detailed histories from our obese orthopedic patients before I gave them any advice on losing weight.  Let me know if there's anything I can do to help you.     

Strive for excellence, not perfection!  It's okay to stray from the path once in a while but as long as you're still moving you're good to go.  It's getting close to that time of the month for you, so maybe that's where the 2 pounds are coming from.  Regardless, get back up on your bike and start peddling.  You'll be fine.  You want 'this' bad enough to do it for real. I have faith in you, girl!

We're are all in the same boat Christa - don't despair!   We can all relate and have been there or are there! So, at least you can be reassured, at the very least, that you are not alone. BTW, I live alone also and know how hard it can get, as far as eating to satiate lonliness and boredom.  Hang in there. Sabrina

 Dont get discouraged I go through this EVERY month!  Matterof fact I am going through this right now.  Don't ever give up!  Your life depends on it. Fight for life girl!  Your are still down 3 pounds!!!  Awesome!!!

Christa - one more thought - please refrain from over reacting when you do fall off track.  It's only ONE meal or snack at one point.  It does not have to involve the next meal or snack - that is up to you to break that cycle.  Just prepare a healthier balanced meal the next time you eat and move on. All of us tend to write off the day or the week...and it can be more isolated than that if we can not over react and get back to what we know is right for us. Like you, at one time, i would try to "correct" the bad choice by drinking teas or preparing only vegetables. Sometimes that can cause a chain of compensation that we will fail.

 

We here for you, sweets!