10-Month Update and New Photo!

It's that time of the month for an update on me. It has been another tough month -- I am nearing the end of my journey with my beloved husband -- he is deteriorating very quickly now, and it has become too hard for both me and my son to care for him at home. I realize that for the last few weeks of his life, I will have to put him into the hospital. Although I know this is not what he would have wanted, both my kids and I are exhausted both physically and emotionally, and are near our breaking point. The cancer has moved to his brain, and he is unable to communicate verbally or make much sense at all. I'm not sure that he can even understand what I am saying to him even though he is clearly awake, but unresponsive. It's almost as if my husband is already gone, even though his body is still here. I think it will be best in the long run, but I can't help but feel guilty about it. In any case, I will make the final decision later today. Keep us in your prayers -- we need it! As for my weight, I have lost another 8 pounds for a total of 148 -- down to 188#s. However, I have definately resorted to all bad habits, stress eating the wrong things just to put something in my mouth! Have to get that under control again.... Also, my photo has been updated, although the two mid-progress ones seem to have fallen off my profile! I guess there is a photo limit. Lap RNY 6/16/03 -- 336/188/155?

HELLO JUST WANT TO TELL U LOOK REALLY GREAT ..SORRY ABOUT UR husband...KEEP U IN MY PRAYS..

Hi Nan I'm sorry to hear about what you and your family are experiencing. You are in my thoughts. Hugs, Judy

Your family is in my prayers.

I am so sorry that you and your family are in such a sad situation. How difficult it must be to make the decision, but your love for your husband is still strong - you are doing what you believe is best for him and the rest of your family. My thoughts and prayers are with you all. You're doing great on your weight loss...you look wonderful!!!