Body Dysmorphia

I haven't posted on here in a long while.  My weight has been the same for over 2 years. My clothes all fit the same. Then why am I suffering from depression?  over the past few months, I've felt larger than ever and very ugly. Going to the gym has made it worse. I was there 2 hours yesterday and seeing my reflection next to small boned tight bodies, ugh, I came home and wanted to vomit.    I had an arm lift, and suddenly, my arms seem bigger to me than before the surgery.  Blah blah go to  a therapist, blah blah.  Not covered by my insurance, so I refuse to go at this time.  There must be another way to "fix" this. I do think I need a treadmill at home and no more gym, these chicks freak me out. Just venting. Angela

Angela, you're gorgeous!  I hate when the trick mirrors do this crap to our heads.  But, these little "pencil chicks" as I call them are the reason I didn't join a gym.  Thankfully, a high school friend opened a gym and I don't need to deal with the "pencil chicks".  I get to see "normal" sized women instead of cartoon characters.  It's no wonder that children age 10 are becoming anorexic.  Try to find a place like Curves or an equivalent.  The "pencil chicks" don't hang there because there are no guys to impress. ;)

Seriously though, you're gorgeous, you've worked yourself, you've had the plastics and you've done more to improve yourself than any of them ever will.  Hang in there.  I'll be 7 months out on Christmas Day and I'm just 5.4 pounds from my surgeon's goal.  I am SOOOOOOOOO happy with myself right now.  I find the whole journey mind-blowing.  Instead of coming down on yourself you should heartily congratulate yourself!  You look BEAUTIFUL!!!!!

Vent away Angela - I totally know what you mean.  I know I am smaller - I was 360 lbs, now I am 165 lbs.  I am no longer a size 32, I am a size 12/14.  Yet there are days that I feel like I am still huge!  I find that I can see the true me when I look at pictures - mirrors sometimes lie to me -LOL!!  I think once you see your wedding pics, you will see how truely beautiful you are now!!   As far as the gym is concerned - I have to be honest - I hate the gym.  I now take two dance classes (tap and jazz) and at least 2 yoga classes per week.  I love the work out I am getting from dance / yoga.  I feel that I am the strongest I have been in years!  I highly recommend yoga.  I just love it!  It is an awesome workout, in the most nurturing of environments.  I have really come to appreciate my body, the things I've put it through, and the things it can now do, and I owe it all to yoga!

Add me to the list of women suffering from Dysmorphic Syndrome.  I'm lucky enough to belong to a gym with a large amount of "non-stick" girls and "gladiator" boys. I'll be 2 years post-op in 2 weeks.  I'm down a total of 150#s.  I've gone from a size 28 to a 12/14.  I still feel FAT.  My thighs flap in the breeze and are wrinkled like a SharPei puppy.  I could pack a family of 4 in my saddlebags.  My arms are scary.  There isn't enough excersize in the world that will fix this. It's a good thing I don't look to bad when dressed 'cause naked I'm horrific. RobinNJ

Hi Angela, I will be the first one to say that I had the surgery because I hated the way I looked.  If anyway who had the surgery tries to say that they had it only for health reasons then they are telling a fib.    After having the surgery I have had a lot of problems with eating, everything I would eat would cause heartburn and Indegestion.  Everyday I feel lousy, but I love the weight loss.  Somehow I wish I could have accepted myself for who I am, I realize that what's done is done.   You need to love yourself for who you are and be happy.  Somehow we all take life for granted, we don't mean to, but we do.  I don't know if you had any complications since you had your surgery, but your here, and your living, and that is what is so important.   You need to give yourself a break and pat yourself on the back, and look at the wonderful person that you are.  God made each of us so special, if he didn't life would be so boring. LOL.  Remember you are who you are, because no one can be like you!!!!  I hope that my words of wisdom made you feel better. Melissa

Ang SLAP You look Marvelous Find a new GYM (where do u go)  I go to The Gym on 37- do not think u would have the same situation---but i go and am somewhat oblivious to most (most!!) around me. U do look great---First time I saw you---I thought this was one of the AA or DA or GA that stubmbled into one of our meetings. I missed u at the xmas meeting.... chris