Visit with my pcp....

Well, not the visit I was expecting. She was stunned to see me and how I've changed since January. She asked all about me, how I was doing. told her how I wish the weight loss was more proportioned (legs in particular) and she proceeded to say how they have gone down dramatically... I may not see it, but they have drastically gone down; in any event, she dropped the word "lymphadema"... saying, you do have some lymphedema down there... that sent me into a tailspin. Just hearing the word. I was like, that's what I have? You never said that to me before? She went on for nearly an hour that it's not the stage of lymphedema that I read about - that it's regressing - and she's always put down in my charts and insurance paperwork that I've had that. She said my legs will go down but the lymph nodes are so stressed due to the years of weight on them, they will never go down to Barbie size, but I will be able to wear dresses, capris, etc... (she was saying all this to make me feel better because I couldn't compose myself). She went on to say that people who are pregnant and get swollen legs, that is called lymphedema, too; there are just different degrees and mine is not at such a degree where I, # 1, need to go to a specialist, # 2, will not need that debulking surgery. I just heard that word and that's all I can think about now and can't stop with the waterworks. In any event, she said all my #'s look phenomenal. She commented on how good my face looks and she would have thought I would have lots of wrinkles due to the loss, and is amazed at how young my face looks. She said don't take the fish oil, we don't need it, and it will cause indigestion and you'll be burping up a fish taste/smell. She said my hair is thin, but not so noticeable as I think it is, and that it will grow back - like everyone else keeps telling me; but I just cant stand this stage of where I am right now. Seeing her reaction to her seeing me made me feel really great- but that was quickly diminished when she dropped the L word.

have you seen barbies legs lately???? she's always standing on her toes cuz she has to wear those stiletto shoes!! that would hurt all day!!! ok lets get this positive attitude going here STOP going to the doctors!!!!! only go to kirkland!! first the wrists now the legs -- stay the hell away from the other doctors!! ok so you don't need a specialist -- that is very good you don't need debulking surgery -- maybe you might want that to hurry up the fat loss ok so you don't want that your hair will grow back mine is goofy looking right now and sticks up everywhere -- but it's growing lol told ya your face looked different!! now do you believe me?? so is she going to watch the L word?? when do you go back to see her?? this is a good stage you are down 103 lbs!! that is a good stage -- and it can only get better!! pick yourself up by your new shirts and march forward with your journey now lets do some research on the L word i'm beside you all the way!! love ya roberta