post op blues

Hi everyone, thanx for replying back to me, im farily new to this so i don't know how to say thank you individuly. Im home now, i had my RNY March 1st. i went home the following day. Monday i was having chest pain heart palpatations stomach ache. my doctor freaked and i ended up for a week in the hospital. i got discharged yesturday. i was dehydrated, and im feeling really depressed. im hungry, all i could think about is food, i hate soup. and just the thought of drinking that clear broth makes me sick to my stomach, i have been crying a lot. i was even saying i regret having this done. i was happier being "the fat girl" atleast i could eat in peace. am i being stupid about this? my brother and my parents and my fiance are being very supportive, i just need to know this is temp. because i woke up wanting food. breakfast, pancakes, eggs bacon. i miss my food. im just terrified. PLEASE HELP ME.

I am a pre-op so I do not know if I can be of much help. Try to remember why you took this step. Concentrate on all the things you will be able to do once the weight comes off. Remember that if you did not have the surgery you would never be able to do those things. From what I hear it will get better. Good luck to you and keep focused.

Hi thanx for the support. its just getting tough i just want some type of food in me. you know? even if its a peice of toast. im starving i hate soup i refuse to drink any type i get sick from it do not get full feel more hungry. im going nuts i suppose. i just can't wait for the second step. atleast i can have hot cereal and oatmel.

Hello Zandy, I didn't have this experience when I had my surgery, but I'm sure that this is only temporary. First, I don't think you were happy being "the fat girl". If you were, you wouldn't have gone through the surgery. While you may still have cravings for food, it's just your mind playing tricks on you. If you eat any of those foods you're wanting, you will pay for it by dumping and believe me it's no picnic. You will either vomit the food or have diarrhea. Then you will literally need to lay down to help elevate the pain. You also need to keep in mind that if you are craving these foods you will probably eat it like you were starving and that isn't good as you need to chew your food slowly and throughly so that food doesn't get stuck. In other words, no matter how much food you want, if you don't follow your surgeon's instructions you will only be hurting yourself and then you will have to deal with the guilt of eating foods that you had no business eating. Just remember why you had this surgery and use that for motivation to stay focus. Sometimes the recovery may be worst than the surgery itself, but it will get better and before you know it, you would have reached your goal weight. Carla

Hi Carla thanx for those words of wisdom. my fiance said soon i will eat and be fine again, just won't eat like a beast anymore and will get fuller quicker. its just the thought of food in my body you know? im not eating anything just broth and tea and water and diluted juice and it sucks. this is the worst for me, because i hate soup. i think after this experience i will never have soup again. literally won't ever. i just can't wait to get to the second step. you know? atleast i can have hot cereal and oatmel and i do love those. and then 3rd step mash potatoes and eggs. once i get there i'll be happier even if it takes me an hr to eat a regular but small meal again i'll be happy. am i being silly?? i was use to eating anything i wanted. im a pre-med college student and i didn't want to go to med. school being an overweight soon to be doctor. i'll feel like a hippocrit. you know? so i know i did the right choice just this is very depressing and fustrating. thanx again for the support i need it at this point.

I understand what you mean. Since my 1st stage of the surgery, I haven't had any jello or broth since then. That's wonderful that you're a pre-med student. It will be great to share this experience with your patients as this would make you more compassionate towards your overweight patients. The frustration and depression will pass as time will fly by so quickly. When you start seeing the results from all of this, you will look back and realized that it was worth it. Carla

Hey Carla. Yea im proud of myself, its just real tough, and you been through it, thou not the cravings. and watching tv is harder, stupid pizzahut commericals. gets me mad. my brother goes. when you're ahead of you're recovery you can enjoy a slice, and i said a slice maybe to big, he goes. then half a slice, but that time will come and you won't be like i want this and that and then binge, and i know ppl who had this done they eat normally, thats also im looking forward to. just be "normal" but instead of being an over weight "cow" im 5'4 and now 260 i believe i was 277 when i had the surgery. i know i lost 17lbs. and yea becoming a doctor was one of my goals and thats already there now just become healthy and thinner is my next goal, thanx again carla for your support!!

hi zandy my husband had the post op depression -- he felt as tho he was being punished for liking food too much -- but 9 months later and a ton of weight gone he's not as depressed anymore -- it might have lasted him about 3 weeks to a month -- about the time he went back to work i didnt' go thru the depression -- but dam it i would love a plain bacon double cheeseburger!!!! but i'll stick to my fruit cup or yogurt for tonight i wanted a sandwich about a month after surgery -- it wasnt' worth the hassle!! i wanted to just eat it -- but i had to eat it real slow and i just got bored trying to eat it -- needless to say i haven't had another sandwich or wanted one good luck to you and we are all here for you Roberta

Hi Roberta. thanx for the support. like i said in my previous reply's im just fustrated now. i crave food because i feel hungry, hate soup, and its like hello i need a peice of bread in me!! i guess when i start eating again and of course smaller i'll be a lot happier. i mean with your experience do you eat normally? but in smaller portions? im going to my surgeons office tuesday im gonna ask a hell of a lot of questions im just worried about food. well thnx for your support i need it at this point.

Zandy, Congratulations on your surgery and welcome to the losing side. What you are feeling is very normal. Your emotions will be on a rollar coaster ride for several months. If you feel like crying do it. You will start to balance. Try to find a support groups, outside of this forum, that will help you. As far as the head hunger goes, I had open RNY and the first week every Pizza Hut and Domino's commericals were on TV. I had to have my sister come to my house and take all my cash and credit cards because I wanted cheesy bread and pepperoni pizza. Now we all know this early out of surgery that food would make you so sick, but your head is having a hard time getting that straight. It will happen for you. I don't know what your personal situation is or why you chose the surgery but believe me if you went through the whole procedure to get this operation you don't want to be the fat girl anymore. It will all fall into place. Will the feeling of missing food ever go away. I don't think so, but it will become less important. Keep yourself busy. Journal your thoughts, get out to a support group and as soon as you can start exercising. This is going to happen for you as it does for all of us. If you need to talk e-mail at [email protected]. I am 9 months out this week and have lost 150 lbs. Good luck and keep plugging. Jeanne