tomorrow is my day and I'm scared

It sounds really silly. I've wanted this surgery for a long time. Now that its almost here I'm scared. I'm an RN and should know better but all the same I'm really nervous. Thanks for letting me vent. Dorothy

I had been a nurse practitioner in my pre-op life and boy did I think I should have had it all figured out. I guess we're still human. It's like the time I needed sutures in my right index finger and the ER doc said that the lidocaine injection shouldn't bother me one bit because I was a nurse, after all! That was crap! It hurts a lot!!! When we're nurses I think it's worse because not only do we have the normal human nerves but we also add on the anxieties gleaned from years of watching bad things happen to our patients and fearing either those bad things or some as yet unknown bad thing will happen to us and we'll be the patient talked about in report. "Did you know what happened to her? and she's a nurse, too...(clucking tongues all around)" Part of it for me was the embarrasment at being a health care provider and ending up in the horribly morbidly obese shape that I was pre-op. I felt that I would be judged more severely and I know I judged myself because of my professional background - like I should have known better. Be easy on yourself and take care. We're pulling for you! Warmly, Chris Davitt Highest 287 Current 198.5 Goal 170

Chris Congrats on getting under the mark! Keep flossing Sandi

Dorothy, everyone goes in scared, that's normal... but you come out thinking, I can't believe it's over, did it really happen? You don't remember a thing. Believe me I had it 6 days ago and I still don't believe I'm in recovery. You will be in my prayers. Let us know how you are doing. Hugs Connie