a little nervous

hi everyone basically i'm a happy person and don't let my down side out alot -- but so much has happened in 6 months -- i got a new surgeon -- did the 6 month diet -- found out i had to be treated for Hep C (i found out 2 yrs ago that i had it when i donated blood) -- fought with insurance the whole month of february to get my treatments -- finsished the diet in april -- went out of work on 4/25 -- paperwork went into insurance in may and i was approved 6/4 -- still had treatments until 9/8/06 -- asked the dr what he thought -- he said to wait til i was done with treatments -- ok i will (long sad face)-- well in the meantime i've been dropping weight -- lots of weight -- now my concern is -- come october 6th -- will they still do the surgery -- my BMI is now under 40 -- i've done all the diets -- i know the weight comes back -- and i'm scared that without the surgery the weight will come back after my treatments -- i just went back to work last week -- could only have 12 weeks off and i NEED to keep my insurance -- i have a meeting tomorrow with the boss and HR idiot to see if i'm really fit for work -- i think i can work with some assistance -- i don't trust my driving and driving is part of my job -- i don't trust my reaction time and that is part of my job -- i NEED my job and i feel like i'm being dangled -- my head is just spinning out of control -- my 18 yr old son just moved down here with me -- i moved here when he was 16 -- so this is new again -- will he pack up and screw -- will he find a job -- he needs ID -- he needs a bank account -- will he will he will he -- so many questions with no answers and most can't be answered anyways -- ok i'm rambling -- i'm done for now thanks everyone Roberta

Wow Roberta! That's my kinda ramble - I bet you haven't been this worked up since Grady left Pedro in to pitch the rest of the 8th inning during Game 7! Just take a deeeeeeep breath...... ohm....ohm....ohm..... Ramble here as much as you need to, my friend Be Well, -A.J.