Friday morning checkin

Good morning friends!

Carrie used to do a daily check-in and I found it helpful and a great way to stay in tou*****arrie's absence, I thought I'd pick up the mantle and start it again. 

As you know, I've been experiencing a great deal of stress lately and I've been dropping weight. Who would have ever thought that we might have this reaction to stress? Some stress and I eat too much, a lot of stress and I can't eat at all. I'm working on it though. I went grocery shopping yesterday and made sure to get somethings that I love and that will be good for me. I've also decided to start logging my intake. When I log my intake it seems to work; whether I'm trying to lose or gain. I think that the awareness of what I am or am not eating really makes a difference for me. It helps me regain balance and I think that balance is what it's all about. Not too much and not too little, but just enough... That's what I'm striving for today.

Let's see... I got my taxes done and filed... Had to pay one, got a few $ back on the other. I would have filed earlier, but I just got back from CA last week. 

I'm working on clearing out and cleaning up so that we can downsize.

Please share what you are doing today... If it's WLS related or not. 

It is a beautiful Friday in the Carolinas, 86 and sunny today. I usually wear scrubs every day to work but thought on this beautiful day I would wear a new outfit. May compliments, since scrubs do not exactly show the 84 pound I have lost. I find it quite exciting that I can only wear regular sizes now and I would like to wear my size 7 panties on the outside lol . I am feeling great and having fun on my journey now. The past three months are becoming a faded memory of all the difficulties. I am sorry I will miss support group but son had a hockey game. I am a slave to the children at their age 11 and 14. But, they say you will never get these times back so I am enjoying them!!!!
Hope you all have a wonderful weekend and enjoy the pretty weather and relaxing.
Love to all
Audra

Hi Audra,

I am sorry I'll miss the opportunity to meet you in person tomorrow, but you are so right about these years flying by and your priorities are right where they need to be. Hopefully we'll be able to connect at another event or possibly at one of Duke's support group meetings if you ever attend those. 

I have to say that I really can relate to moving into the 'normal' sizes. It was and still is a major WOW for me. Enjoy!

As you mentioned, the difficulties of the first few months seem to recede with time. Sort of like the memories of childbirth... otherwise, how could we sign up to do it again! But like with childbirth, for me it was a sort of rebirth and I would definitely do it again, even knowing the trials and tribulations ahead. The benefit was definitely worth the cost for me and it sounds like it might be for you as well. 

Enjoy your hockey game and I hope your team wins!

I had a most great experince yesterday.
I made the choice that size 8 in panties are getting to big OMG I never thought I would be ordering smaller sizes in underwear LOL
So I went to www.jms.com the place I have always bought under clothing and... OMG they dont even carry a size 7 this was a OMG moment for me.
I walked all three dogs this morning and was surprized by my friend who I have been trying to help her with her weight problems she showed up with a big tray of marigolds for me to plant.
I was very touched by this.
On my way to make a Avon delivery go by the store and have lunch with Lee then come home and ride my bike for 30 minutes and do my weights and situps.
I just love how many things I can do during the day.
BTW I got a new cell phone so I can text now.
I am a woman of the 21st century and loving it.
                                                                  Annie

I see Annie you have a cell phone but do you have a facebook. My kids made me get one to be part of the 21st century ha ha lol
Audra

Hi Annie,

I'm delighted to hear that you are doing such a great job of taking care of you and that you are getting support from the friend that had once been jealous of your weight loss and may now start seeing her own way to a healthier life. 

See you soon,

Happy Friday!

 

Glad to see everyone checking in and managing through life. The hills and valleys come and go so I appreciate the friendships here that are helping us climb up and run down!

 

My realization yesterday was I am not just struggling, but have a MAJOR problem with food.

 

Yesterday…

I ate too much for lunch. Ended up in the bathroom SERIOUSLY contemplating throwing up. Now I got stories to tell (don’t I always) but I will spare you this time. Just know that I have the ABILITY to not throw up even when I am deathly ill (what a skill to brag about!) So for me to even contemplate such a DRASTIC move means I was MISERABLE.

 

No one to blame but me. I am eating too much lately that I am in pain after every meal. Tummy, head, and mouth are not talking to each other at all. So I asked myself how do I stop eating to the point of pain? First thought was to go back to my original rules when I barely 3 months out…4 bites no more no less. Had some more thoughts and I will say I did not eat to the point of pain last evening.

 

This morning…

I wake up at 4:30am to run and the FIRST thought on my mind was…WHAT’S FOR LUNCH      ! (typically do not eat breakfast). I got up, smacked myself, and went straight to my knees to pray…

 

Lord I have trusted you with every other aspect of my life…why cannot I trust you to help me treat food as it is,,,fuel for the body you have blessed me with?

 

So long story short, I just STOPPED lunch (put the fork, down, back away slowly…) No pain today! I do not recall ever being so obsessed with food! If I could exercise like I think about food, I would be past my goal weight!

 

I did say HAPPY Friday didn’t I?

 

I am back to exercising regularly and the scale is going back down. My clothes fit better once again. Life is beautiful and darling hubby is coming with me tomorrow!

 

Despite the mountain, I can still smile…keep smiling ya’ll!

((((((Valerie)))))),

I hear your pain and have found myself doing the same thing. It's really hard to get our heads around it sometimes. Some of the things that have really helped me are

* Reviewing my list of why I want to lose/maintain the weight every morning, evening and sometimes in between

* Finding mechanisms to help me manage my portions, i.e., small plates, bowls, utensils... measuring things

* Using my Beck Books... Seeing it in black and white actually does help me to keep those things that will help me and keep at bay those things that hurt me.

* Logging what I eat and my activity... I find that when I journal my intake, I'm so much more aware of what I'm doing and to be honest, I'm more careful. It helps me be accountable to me.

Hang in there my friend... you can do this and I'm here if you need me... Thank you for being there when I needed you. 

Hugs,

Hi everyone!

Hope you all had a good day today. It was so nice out, but I had to work, so I didn't get to spend anytime outside.  hopefully it will be nice next week.

Finished writing a paper for a class and now I have to catch up on everything else.

I get my sleep apnea machine on Monday. Im excited, I slept so good the night of my sleep study after they put the mask on me, I was amazed and felt wonderful the next day.

On the 26th I go in to get my gall bladder taken out. Im nervous but it has to be done before the RNY.

I can't go to the meeting tomorrow... because I have to work. Hopefully one Saturday I will be able to make it. I want to meet more people :)

Have a good night!

Sharon

By the way I have a question.. Why in some posts are there *** in the middle of a word?
Thanks

Hi Sharon,

I'm sure that you will be sleeping much better after you receive your machine. My husband says that it makes an huge difference for him. 

I'm sure that your gall bladder surgery will go just fine. I had mine about 16 years ago when they first started doing them laproscopically. While it's not something I'd sign up for on a regular basis, I felt sooooo much better after I had that darn thing removed and I'm sure you will too.

While we do have the standing general support group meeting on the 3rd Saturday morning of each month, I also hold special interest group meetings during the month and they meet on weeknight evenings. There are usually 2 or 3 a month beyond the general meeting. You can get information about them at www.meetup.com/nc-wls.  

I hope to meet you soon!