Ok so the Honeymoon is over and I've been bad

Well it'll be 3 years in June in my journey.  THe lowest I got was 144 but then I went back up to 148 to 150 for a long time.  Then last year is was around 152.  Ok so  4 weeks ago it was 160!!!!  I had stopped walking in October, replacing it with Halloween Candy, christmas goodies,  lots of wine, you name it..But hey I've been in junk for the last 1 1/2 and had crusied thru it.  Sooo I started back walking a few weeks back in my new Sketchers and boy do you feel the burn.  Well I hadn't changed my eating habits either..though I didn't feel like I do eat much but apparently alot over the day.  Thank God Easter Candy is out of the stores..Well my bowels hadn't been right the last few days and I was really cleaned out so I figured I must of lost a few pounds...nope  164.  Yep 4 pounds more.  This was just before I left for work so a whipped off my work pants and tried last summers white jeans on in front of the mirror  counldn't even get them around my hips and fussed myself out.  DId it help.  I don't think.  The carb monster is back in control,  U find myself loading up on the flavor coffee creamers, nibbling on what I can and devoring the kitchen when I get home and a glass or two of wine.  This is crazy.  Some days on weekends when I work to the resteraunt I don't even eat till around 4.  Some things do fill me up quick but not coffee and the bad stuff.  I know what I've got to do but I still feel defeated like it's not going to work that I'll lose this battle too.  Guess I need to get a food journal going too.  Figured I'd but this out there out of the closet!!

OK it is time to get back on the horse, per say. You need to start eating something or drinking a protein shake first thing in the morning. Stop the BLT"S (bites, licks and taste) and for the wine, it is wasted empty calories right now so give that a vacation. This is your first attitude adjustment from a stranger lol!!! Just kidding, I can imagine it is hard to start from go again, but sometimes we have to regroup and stop our destructive behaviors. Food is our drug and you need to detox.
I wish all the best to you,
Audra

You are so correct.  It is hard toget back in the saddle espically when it all smells and taste good again.  I hate the fact the nerves have reconnected and I can eat just about anything.  I can remember thinking ill thoughts when skinny girls complained about gaining 5 pounds,  hell what was 5 pounds when you were 280 somthing.  Well 5 to 14 pounds is a hugh uncomfortable difference in pants size LOL!!  Put thanks for the support!

Lynn,
I have admired you for a long time.
We are all human and being that we are not perfect.
I always tell DH when I am perfect I wont cover up when I get out of the shower.
Without PS I will never be able to be perfect.I am no longer SMO and that is a gift for me.
Don t
g ive up and try to get back to workingout it is a stress reliver for me.
Just to be able to walk without a cane is a blessing.
Sending you love and light.
                                            Annie
                                                
 

 

At least you're catching it now at 164 rather than 200 or more.  I know it's not much easier to lose at this point especially when you've been used to "sliding by".  I find myself doing that now at 1 yr out so you're helping me at the same time.  I am a member of Weigh****chers and am trying to use that to maintain the weight loss.  If I follow the points system it seems to really help.  Of course, tracking is the key so do get back into journaling!  Good luck!

I do appreciate all the comments.  I try not to post much compaint wise because...I should know better...I know the rules and how it works..but your right none of us are perfect and this will be a life long challenge.  I do not like looking at myself nakie, LOL but though it is still a lot of filling out rinkles I am looking at, it is much better than what it was at 284.  My face does look better.  It is just such a scary feeling and a feeling of failure or dome when it creeps back.  You really have a hard time cutting yourself any slack at this point in the game.  Yea I can blame it on stress, boardoom, candy or what ever but I get mad at myself because before and after this surgery, specialist, supporters and this forum told and warned me, so there is no excuse.  SO I guess we know it is true there is no good reason to have just one little taste since it doesn't make me sick or have enough calories.  It's like herion I guess.  I hate compaining cause I know it could be much worse.  I could still be 284 with no means to have had this surgery.  THanks though for putting up with me.  The best thing about it is though, I knew I could come back here and get what I needed....You Guys!

Lynn,

We are at about the same place in our respective journey's and I can really relate. My low was 132 and I got back up to 152. While 132 was a little too thin and as you say my face looked better with the extra lbs, it made me uncomfortable that I had gained the weight. I took mine back down into the mid 140's and was really pretty comfortable there. I've dropped back into the 130's with the recent stresses I've been experiencing and believe it or not, it's too thin. 

The way that I took off the extra pounds I had gained was to journal what I was eating. The awareness and accountability really helped me. I ate more consistently and what I ate was better 'quality'. 

You are NOT doomed to failure and continued regain. You can get this under control. If I did, anybody can and you can too. Stop beating yourself up. Know that this is a process and it is okay to stumble and fall. The important thing is that you get back up and keep going. You cheered me on when I stumbled, I'm here to do the same for you. 

Hang in there and take care of yourself. You are worth it!

All the best,

(((HUGS))) This is just what I needed to read....it's proof that we're never alone in this journey. I'm back on here to hold myself accountable. I'm come to far to let things slip back into really, really bad old habits (coffee creamers and carbs among the top of the list)

- Iris

Well 2 THINGS are always going to be constent in this journey....

1.  Weight gain and being on top of this Life Change (not a 6 month or 3 year life change)is going to be a everyday challenge, good or bad.  Still better than where I was before.

2.  The most obvious is that no matter what, you have to stay involved with some  sort of support system to succeed....Thank You Guys!!  It is easy to take in the encouragement and much easier to take in the bold hard truth from  fellow Loosers!

Lynn, I am so with you on this. BTW, your pic looks gorgeous, I'm checkin' out those collarbones! Please try to stop before you get like I am , almost back up to pre-surgery weight, wearing almost the same clothes. This time though, I have the feeling of failure and depression on top of being fat again. I'm just so sick and tired of this fight. I've given in to the monster.

Nancy