home from rehab

Hope all is doing well. I just got home from rehab. I went in for my anorexia. I will post on my profile tomorrow. I am so tired and glad to be back home. God bless you all. By the way I went in at 95lbs. Now I am 103. The doctor wants me at 110. Not far to go. And thank god my organs are all still good. Thank you all for the support. I hope god blesses you all.

lots of love

Amy

Hey Amy, So good to hear from you.  I am very proud of you.  And I am sure that I speak for us all when I say that.  We love you and only wish the best for you and your family.  Welcome home!!! Dana

Thank you. I am so,so sorry if I was mean to anyone on here. I really did need meds. I couldn't do this on my own like I thought. I am a very strong little woman but I did need God to carry me this time. And you know what? He did. I don't even remember much about signing myself in. I don't really know what was my breaking point but I am gald I had one. And yes I am way to skinny. I do look or did look sick. I am going to get better and keep thinking that in my mind. My mind can make my body sick. Thanks so much for caring. I don't only love the kids I love me too. Never thought I would say that.

Lots of love

amy

Amy, I have been praying for you and I'm so happy to read this news from you.  Let God continue to carry you, and He will! This was my "Daily Word" email today and I'd like to share it with you here. Today's Daily Word - Tuesday, January 22, 2008 Spiritual Path I am on my right path of spiritual discovery and enrichment. Along the way on my spiritual path, I am discovering how to live more fully each day from the Christ Spirit within. I also read books that offer me knowledge and foster a positive attitude. I choose food that nourishes and energizes my body temple. I speak words that enrich the lives of those around me.  On this journey, I behold the Christ in others. I see the sacred evidenced in the radiant smile of a friend and the friendly wave of a stranger. I witness helping hands and hearts reaching out to those in need. I feel the embraces of caring friends and loved ones. I see gardens being planted in formerly blighted areas and people uniting in prayers for peace and in songs of praise.  I am making daily progress on my path of spiritual discovery and enrichment.  “The God who has girded me with strength has opened wide my path.”—2 Samuel 22:33

My mind was so twisted I really thought God had left me. I felt like a empty shell. I didn't feel. I know now that I am a child of god just like anyother person in this world. I do belong in this world. I didn't think so before. I did try and end it all a few weeks ago. I poured out over 200 pills out on the floor and got me something to drink and had took a few and there was a knock on my door. I didn't have to answer it but I did and it was my son. Him and the love and by the hand of god they saved me. I am alive. I matter in this world. I am  a good person. And I want it to show. I don't want to be mean. I had a broken heart. Now I am fixed. I am so sure god will fix me that I am thanking him already because I am that sure he will. Thank you so much. I am crying my eyes out. I am so happy to still be in this world. God is carring me. He will never leave me and that is my peace right now.

Thanks for your time.

amy

That knock on the door was GOD knocking!  Your son was the messenger HE sent to save you that day! I pray for your continued healing.  Do stay more in touch with us here. You know this is a wondermous place for all kinds of support.... you just have to reach out to us, AND to God because He will continue carrying you!!

I am glad to hear you are home and doing well. You have been on my mind lately and I have been wondering how you were doing... and here you are :-) I look forward to reading about your stay on your blog. Im sure your kids are thrilled to see you, as you are them!

I hope I never have to go back but it is nice to know now that I know where to get the help I need. It took the near end for me to realize I need help. I didn't want to live. I hated Amy. Now I love Amy lol....yes I love myself.

thanks for caring

amy

Hi Amy,

I was just thinking about you the other day and wondererd how you were doing. Congratulations for finishing out your rehab, welcome back and Im glad you are doing well



Darcie

it was not easy. I had a camera on my 24/7...I had no door on my bathroom. And if I puked I had to swallow it. And I did 2 times. I thought at the time they was a little mean but it was for my own good. They sit and watched me and also cheered me on to eat. I am glad I went. And I am glad I am in this world today. Thanks for thinking of me.

Amy