Mini-Rant... No More of a Pity Party..

Okay....  I hope this does not sound as bad as I think it will...   I have lost 83 pounds..  gone down almost 4 sizes..  I feel better physically.  I look better physically.  But my emotions are all over the place.  My fuse is short and I cannot cover my emotions with chocolate anymore.  I am having a hard time dealing with all of this emotional stuff.  Some days I want to scream.  Some days I want to cry.  I know this is all part of the change I am going through, but it sucks big time.  

Gosh I am sorry to hear that you are having a hard time right now, Jennifer.  But I am glad you brought it to this forum.  I know that you are not alone in needing new coping mechanisms to replace the crutch we used to use to deal with our feelings.  My surgeon has a list of psychologists specially trained in eating disorders and the transformations that people like us go through.  They often speak at our monthly support group meetings.  You might find it useful to seek out the assistance of a counselor who specializes in eating disorders.  I know the honeymoon is about to wear off for me soon and I know I will find myself stuck in a room with only myself and my "stuff" to look at and I am going to need some help with that. This too shall pass!  You're doing the right thing.

I appreciate the concern.. but I really do not feel like I need to talk to a psychologist.  I just needed to get it out of my system.  Once I said it here  I felt much much better.  LOL

(((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))) Sorry, our hormones be all the over the place.. But like you said, you feel better, you look better, your healthier..so maybe it's a small price to pay for all that "NEW YOU ATTITUDE".. it's ok...you will get through this.. Your a beautiful, smart, intelligent woman.. and it's ok that we let our feelings show sometimes..It makes us who we are.. You'll get through this and I will be praying for you.. Blessings

Thanks Taryn..  Hormones.. BLEH.  They should be called HORRORMONES.  LOL.  I know that this too shall pass.. it just is not pleasant right now.  I appreciate all of your encouragement and prayers.  :)

(((((((((((Jen))))))))))))) First of all CONGRATULATIONS on losing 83 lbs... do you really want to have those pounds back again? NO!!! you look fantastic!!!! I have the same kind of days you have and sometimes I want to scream and yell and go nuts.... chin up girlie tommorro is a BETTER day :0

Hugs
Darcie

Thanks Darc... I knew someone here could relate to how I feel.  So far, this is my "ugly" side of wls.  But this too shall pass!!  Thanks for being there with just the right words to say!!

Congrats on the weight loss!  I have a few sugestions on venting and working through emotions without chocolate.  Talk to your favorite critter....I have cried my eyes out before to my horse or dog. Get a punching bag and beat the  out of it. I love crafts and do them when I have an issue. If I am upset my husband tells me to go and make a greeting card to calm  down.He knows me well. Post on this board!! Knitting is known to help with flustrations. Go help someone with worse problems that you. Praying can help! Write the trouble in a journal.....that helps to realy think it through. And after I have my surgery  and start having similar problems you can post this list back at me. Seriously, I hope you can find a key to help with this. I am menepaulsal and already do have similar things going on. When I have a bad day ....the next day is generaly better. Hope this is true for you. God Bless Myrtis

Oh Jennifer...I'm sorry to hear you are all over the place emotionally.  That is one thing I am not wanting to deal with because I have already been there done that on the medication and bought the t=shirt.     But...look at you girl.... simply beautiful.  you have so many things to be thankful for.  One being that cute cute cute hair cut that I have now wanted since I first signed on OH and saw your beautiful face.  You are such an inspiration to so many people.  You would never know you hide the emotional part so well.  So you do need to work on that....and it is ok to take meds for a little while if you want to.  ONLY if you want to.  That is why they have meds.  You have accomplished so much and come so far to let this part start defeating you.....  Its just a day....  tomorrow will be better.!!  Heck..Its Friday.     Its the weekend.    And in NC its gonna be beeeautiful!!  Finally Fall! 

(hugs)  Connie

You know what Connie... I felt much better after getting it out on this board.  It was like I was hiding it, but now that I have "confessed" I do feel better.   I am going to my PCP today to have my ear checked out.  We may have to discuss Vitamin P.  LOL Thanks for all of your kind words.  There are parts of this journey that you can try to anticipate, but you never really know how it feels until you are smack in the middle of it.  :)   And not only is it Friday..but school is out today and IT IS A LONG WEEKEND!