I go to my pcp tomorrow at 10:45 to talk to him about putting me out of work. I can't work anymore. At my job I can't make any mistakes. I am so shakey and weak I am going at my clients with a needle shaking all over the place. I can't be sticking someone like this. It is all I can do to type this morning. I am going to talk to the doctor to see if I can finish out this month (been here 15 years this month) and I want to go and sign myself into chapel hill hospital. They have a eating disorder floor. I am at my last. I knew this day was coming. I just didn't know when. Thought it would be before now. I am happy I got to work as long as I did. I hope I can go for a month and get strighten out and come back to work. But I really don't see that happening. I have got to get things stright before I go. I have a lady I trust with all my heart to keep my 16 year old daughter. I just got to be able to pay my bills without a pay check for a month. I get paied once a month at my job. I have used up all my sick days and vacation days. Oh well. Gotta do what we gotta do. Wish me luck tomorrow. Please pray god will lead me down the right path. I am not to sure what I will be getting myself into. It is about 2 hours away from where I live. Please pray for me. I need to know if I am doing the right thing. I really think and feel like I am dying. I am sorry I ***** so much. I am just tired and tired of being sick. Thanks for all you women have done for me. God bless you all. I will let you all know tomorrow what heppens.

amy

saying very special prayers for you!!!!

Thank you so much. I know god will hear us. And help me.

 

Amy

Amy, I am right down the road from Chapel Hill, please PM me with your full name and I will come visit you.  So proud of the move you are making! Love, Diane

That would make me so happy to see you. I know my kids will not be able to come that far to see me. I thought I would be there without seeing anyone. That makes me want to go and get help even more. amy

Amy

If you EVER need anything (or your children) please dont hesitate to let me know. I am glad you are taking the steps to improve your life for yourself and your children. God is definately wrapping his arms around you during this tough time so know he is always there for you!

 

Thank you so much. You women on here are so special to me. You all have helped me through some rough times. More than you will ever know. God bless all of you. I feel so loved right now.  amy

Amy, this is definitely the right thing to do.  God will make a way, even when there seems to be no way.  You need to take care of yourself and let Him take care of you and your kids.  You will be in my prayers. Take care. Ellen

Thank you. Please keep fingers,toes,eyes every thing crossed for good luck. I hope tomorrow the doctor will give me the info. I need. Thanks for all you do. I can't take care of myself any more. So I have to just give it to god and stop fighting this.

amy

Amy, I am so proud of the steps you are taking!  As others have indicated, God will protect you and your family.  It will not be easy, but he will never leave you.  I am sure that I speak with others here in the Triangle, let us know when you get here.  Give us contact information and we will be here for support to.  Thinking and praying for you constantly!  Candice