ok here it is

I think maybe I am emotionaly able to share this today.  Sorry I wasn't able to do it sooner.  I just am so emotionaly drained that I cry ever time I try to talk about it.  On Wednesday I met with Dr. Naziri.  It went well.  He said I am the perfect candidate for wls.  He took me to schedule the surgery.  She tells me with BCBS we can get approval over the phone.  Then she tells me no we can't.  Then she tells me yes we can.  So she is like, let's go ahead and schedule a date before I call.  We scheduled for June 25th.  I was so happy I almost threw up right there.  Then while she is on the phone with the insurance company they inform her that I have pre existing clause.  I called them to see what this is.  Well, since I have all the health problems, I have to have the insurance for 1 complete year before they can cover anything that major.  My new policy began on December 11, 2006.  So, my surgery is scheduled for December 17, 2007.  It really upsets me that I have to wait.  During this 6 months, I sit and think about how my diabetes and high blood pressure are attacking my body.  My eye sight is already getting worse.  My pcp said that he can tell that my kidneys have already been heavely taxed.  My cardiologist found something abnormal with my heart.  I guess it is better for me to sit here and let myself get so damn sick that I might not even be able to have the surgery.  It is so unfair.  I have been told for 4 months that I am morbidly obese, massively obese.  I have never let my boyfriend see me naked, but I know over 50 people have seen my belly and I am so tired and just drained.  I don't know how to explain it.  I thought that I wouldn't have to live like this but a few more weeks.  Because these drs have gotten me to where my self image is a monster, gross and ugly and just like they tell me massively obese.  I can't even stand to go out in public now.  It is such a terrible thing now that I know how others see me.

Sorry to hear about your rough time :( its makes me sad the Drs office doesnt call to verify before putting you thru everything and getting your hopes up by scheduling a surgery date.  As for the pre-existing... did you have insurance prior to this plan? With pre-existing they can only deny you coverage for service if you saw a Dr in the 6 months prior to the plan for a condition. If you did had previous insurance or have questions about pre-existing email me directly... I worked for Cigna for many years and maybe can help :) If you did have previous insurance depending on when you may be able to cut down your pre-existing period... I just need more information to tell you!

Thank you for offering to help.  I had canceled my coverage for 5 months last year, because I couldn't afford it and it wasn't paying anything on my insulin.  I started it back in December.  Yes, I did see a doctor for my diabetes.  I go every two months, sometimes more.  The surgery coordinator at Southern Surgical tried everything, as well as I did.  I have talked to BCBS for two days straight.  There is no way around it.  I have to have continual coverage for 1 year for them to cover anything that deals with my weight or diabetes.  Thank you.

Stacey,  I am sooooo sorry to hear what has happened. I have to tell you that you have not come this far to give up.  You are a young beautiful young lady with your entire life ahead of you.  Lift your head to the heavens and thank God that you have insurance (even if they are jerking you around).  There are MANY obese indivials that are not able to work or obtain insurance because of their medical issues or disability that comes with this terrible disease.  So they are left to die.  God also knows exactly what he is doing.  There is a reason for this and find comfort in that.  Hold your head up  and be encouraged.  Let us know if you need to talk. Take care, Candice

Hi Candice!  Yeah, you are right.  Atleast now I know that my sugery will happen.  I think that now all I have to do is wait.  Thanks for your comment. 

You'll get there Stacy!  It will just take a little longer than you thought.  Use this six months wisely, make positive choices for yourself.  You are beautiful and have no reason to feel otherwise!  Other people can't make you feel that way  unless you let them.  Easier said than done, I know, but true.  We're here for you, holler if you're in Greenville and we can meet again. Take care. Ellen

Stacy, (((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))))))  I am sorry that this set back has happened to you.  But at the risk of sounding like a broken record here, use these next six months to get yourself as healthy as you absolutely can so that when December rolls around your body will be more than ready for this surgery.  I know waiting sucks but just think how fast the first part of 2007 has flown by.  December will be here before you know it.  And just think, you received a Christmas present in June -- you will be getting WLS in December -- Merry Christmas!!!!    Vent, cry, rant and rave here all you want to.  That's what we are all here for.  Keep your head up -- YOU WILL GET THERE!!!!!! Donna

I know this has got to be too much to deal with emotionally.  The day before my surgery, I found out that surgery had to be delayed for 3 weeks because of a respiratory infection.  I cried so hard that I couldn't work for one hour (I was at work when I found out the news).  I remember how much delaying 3 weeks hurt.  I can't imagine how delaying 6 months feels.  I'm sorry you are going thru this.  I truely believe things happen for a reason, even though it's sometimes hard to figure out why.  Anyway, I hope the days pass quickly for you. ...Jill

Oh, sweetie, hang in there. Everything will work out for you. It is such a long, hard journey to get  to that day, but just stay focused on the big picture. How great you'll be feeling...and looking...this time next year. It will all be behind you. Good luck with everything. We'll lift you up in prayer. Mare