You guys are the GREATEST!!!!
Thank you so very much for all of your supportive comments and advise. I am still new to the site and kind of figuring it out as I go, but I would be lost without all of you. I have gone so long thinking I was the only one who had these thoughts and feelings. Then I read something from someone who I figure must be reading my mind or how would they know these things. A great heartfelt thank you to you all. I am scheduled for the 28th. Gotta come up with another 2 thousand dollars to (which will be quite a struggle) then I will be free and clear for the surgery.
All my love and thanks to everyone,
Richard