update....
Mom went to the doctor's today and they took the drain out!!! She's going to the doctors Thursday and they might put her on a clear liquid diet. As for everything else.. still the same. It's starting to hit me that Kayla is gone (my cousin's first love mentioned in my last post).. I just can't believe I will never see her smile that big beautiful smile anymore.. I'm glad momma's home now.. she's the only person that I can talk to that will listen and understand and know exactly what I'm talking about.. I've been in her room 3 nights in a row now.. talking with her and crying my tears that I have been keeping in since she's been on the ventilator and the new tears that have come to me since Kayla and Jessica died.
I know that things will get better with time.. and I won't lose touch of God. I've been through hard times since grandpa died in 2008.. that's when I started gaining my weight.. and this lapband hasn't worked.. senior year is about to start and I'm just trying to live my life and smile and truly mean it.. I want to be healthy and find clothes that fit me without having to roll them up. I want to find peace without having to eat to get it..
Love always,
Amanda
I know that things will get better with time.. and I won't lose touch of God. I've been through hard times since grandpa died in 2008.. that's when I started gaining my weight.. and this lapband hasn't worked.. senior year is about to start and I'm just trying to live my life and smile and truly mean it.. I want to be healthy and find clothes that fit me without having to roll them up. I want to find peace without having to eat to get it..
Love always,
Amanda