03/10 REFLECTIONS FOR THE DAY
In a letter to a friend, AA's co-founder Bill W. once wrote, "Nothing can be more demoralizing than a clinging and abject dependence upon another human being.  This often amounts to the demand for a degree of protection and love that no one could possibly satisfy.  So our hoped-for protectors finally flee, and once more we are left alone -- either to grow up or to disintegrate."  We discover, in The Program, that the best possible source of emotional stability is our Higher Power.  We find that dependence upon His perfect justice, forgiveness and love is healthy, and that it works where nothing else will.  DO I DEPEND ON MY HIGHER POWER?

TODAY I PRAY
May I realize that I am a dependent person.  I have depended upon chemicals to alter my moods and attitudes.  I have also developed parasitic attachments for others.  May I stop making unrealistic emotional demands on others, which only serve to choke off mature human relationships and to leave me bewildered and let down.  Only God can provide the kind of whole-hearted love which I, as a dependent person, seem to need.  May I depend first upon God.

TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
God offers perfect love.

Hey all - I had WLS in 2007 and have dealt with addiction transference issues which has led me to AA.  I have created a group on this site that may be of interest to you all.  Take a look and share your experiences.  We can all learn from one another!

http://www.intherooms.com/group/view?gid=1182

Peace to all!
Shelley J
Clinton, MS

Today I am grateful for:

suboxone, and how it is helping me with my pain.

good friends, who exhort and admonish me when I need it.

family, both my kids and my sibs and mom

AA, and my sponsor

my IOP group.

my counselor and therapist.

my psych meds

the rehab I was in and how I stayed in spite of myself.

Trish

03/08 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
Merely to change my behavior, and what I say and do, doesn't prove there's been a change in my actual inner attitude.  I'm deceiving myself if I believe I can somehow completely disguise my true feelings.  They'll somehow come through, prolonging the difficulties in my relationships with others.  I have to avoid half-measures in getting rid of the troubesome emotions I've been trying to hide.  HAVE I TAKEN AN HONEST INVENTORY OF MYSELF?

TODAY I PRAY
May I know that feelings will come out somehow -- sometimes barely disguised as behavior that I cannot always understand.  But that perhaps is more acceptable to me than the root emotion that caused it.  May I be completely and vigilantly honest with myself.  May I be given the insight that comes through depending upon a Higher Power.

TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Feelings can come out "sideways".

i have been in therapy for 2 years and he does have lots of experience with  eating disorders.