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You mean peanut M&M's are NOT good for us.... I do the same thing....
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
I wish you much luck and I'm so glad you're investigating! I sure wish I would have!
Melissa
what you say is so right. I have been skipping my evening dose of meds for months because I won't take them when I'm drinking (for obvious reasons) and now that I'm not drinking I'm ALL screwed up. I'm just crying and angry for no reason. It's good that all my kids are grown up and out of the house, I'm even losing patience with my dog!
I've never been in a psy hosp, though I should have by now. I too, have cut myself and tried suicide several times. My husband takes really good care of me..I just have to keep busy. I'm okay during school because I have so much to do. Who'd think that I am an honor student in college...I'm way messed up.
Melissa
Made me think about just how much I rationalize stupid stuff, like eating M&Ms with peanuts, because they have peanuts, protein. Never mind the sugar content and how I will feel afterward.
I need to become more aware of this stuff. I am going to start back on keeping a food log. That helps me get honest about my intake.
Hugs,
Trish
Albert Schweitzer
07/07 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
What wonderful things could happen in my life if I could get rid of my natural impulse to justify my actions. Is honesty so deeply repressed under layers of guilt that I can't release it to understand my motives? Being honest with ourselves isn't easy. it's difficult to search out why I had this or that impulse and, more importantly, why I acted upon it. Nothing makes us feel so vulnerable as to give up the crutch of The Alibi, yet my willingness to be vulnerable will go a long way toward helping me grow in The Program. AM I BECOMING MORE AWARE THAT SELF-DECEPTION MULTIPLIES MY PROBLEMS?
TODAY I PRAY
May God remove my urge to make excuses. Help me to face up to the realities that surface when I am honest with myself. Help me to know, as certainly as day follows sunrise, that my difficulties will be lessened if I can only trust His will.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
I will be willing to do His will.
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Here are two websites you can check out to explore the AA program. www.aa.org there you can read two of the books online, the AA Big Book and the AA Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions that are how we stay sober.
The other website is a Yahoo group, like this here on Obesity Help. http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/aabeginnersclub/ I try to post there regularly. It is for people who want to learn about AA from people in AA.
IF you are an alcoholic, it will not get better on its own. I thought mine would, and it got worse. I ended up in a psychiatric hospital after not taking the right dose of my meds for weeks, and abusing vicodin and drinking. I was cutting myself and suicidal. They sent me to rehab.
Good luck.
Trish
Albert Schweitzer
I'm not really doing anything right now. My husband takes my car keys when he leaves in the morning and sit in the apartment until her gets home at night. I physically can not go get anything to drink...that will wor****il August when I have to go back to school. LOL I'm hoping by then the worst will be over.
I knew about transfer addiction prior to the surgery, because I was already alcoholic, and a binge eating compulsive overeater. I gained weight when I quit drinking. A year after my surgery, I relapsed with my AA program and gave up over six years of sobriety. It has been a long, hellish two+ years. I ended up in a psychiatric hospital and a rehab. I will have six months of sobriety in less than two weeks.
I hope you are participating in a recovery program, like AA. I could not stay sober without it.
Trish
Albert Schweitzer
I am a year and a half out from surgery. I lost about 50 pounds, but have gained back about 25 pounds. 4 months after my surgery my only grandchild died, and having Bi-Polar, I did not cope with this well. I had a total addiction transfer. I started drinking rum and, now, a year and a half after surgery, not only did I not reach my goal weight, but I've gained back 25 pounds. BE VERY, VERY, CAREFUL HAVING BARIATRIC SURGERY WITH BI-POLAR DISORDER.
It's not fun and it's not recommended. BE READY FOR AN EMOTIONAL BACKLASH. In those completely lame and useless "diet" classes they made me take for 6 months before my surgery never once did they mention addiction transfer or anything about surgery on the mentally ill. That would have been helpful.
I can't say that I regret my surgery, because I don't. I still feel it's a great tool to help me with my food addiction and the obesity that resulted. But I'm saying, just be ready for hell.
Melissa