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REFLECTIONS FOR THE DAY
I'm learning -- all too slowly, at times -- that when I give up the losing battle of trying to run my life in my own way, I gain abiding peace and deep serenity. For many of us, that learning process is a painfully slow one. Eventually, however, we understand that there are only two wills in the world, my will and God's. Whatever is within my direct control is my will; whatever is beyond my direct control is His will. So I try to accept that which is beyond my control as God's will for me. AM I BEGINNING TO REALIZE THAT BY SURRENDERING MY WILL TO THE DIVINE WILL, I AM FOR THE FIRST TIME LIVING WITHOUT TURMOIL AND WITHOUT ANXIETY?
TODAY I PRAY
May I hope that my will can be congruent with the all-encompassing will of God. I pray that I will know immediately if my will is in a useless tug-of-war with His Divine Will. May I trust God now to guide my will according to his Master Plan -- and to make His purpose mine.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Achievement comes when my will is in harmony with God's.


GOD GRANT ME THE SERENITY
TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE!
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Yes, I'm sad today. I hope today has found better spirits for you than your last post. I wanted to let you know that you're not the only one out here feeling depressed and sad. I am also doing all the 'prescribed' work to control my emotions but gosh darn it, sometimes we just feel sad. Even after losing 130lbs, I still get depressed. To be honest, it's a different kind of depressed now. Before surgery, I was depressed about the opportunities I was giving up being fat and all the emotions that go along. But, after surgery, it is more about healing the wounds that caused my fatness to get out of control. It has been more of cleaning up very dusty emotions and getting rid of the old and making room for the new. Don't get me wrong, I have never felt better when I try on that sexy size 2 dress and put on the high heels and take my husband's arm and see the pride in his eyes. The good days will start to out-weigh the bad at some point. Hang in there and please know you are NOT alone. Smiles...Stephanie
I have always kept up with my eating habits, exercise and vitamin intake. If fact, I weigh less now than I ever have since having my surgery. I never had a problem with mental illness or alcohol prior to my surgery. I followed all the required therapy and psychological testing as requested by my surgeon and had NO PROBLEMS. I am now CONVINCED that there is a direct correlation between RNY surgery and long-term mental health/substance abuse issues because of the vitamin deficiencies and malabsorbtion created through the surgery. I feel as though this surgery DESTROYS your brain and I only feel like it is getting worse over time. I have been trying to do some research to actually find some studies on this matter... I have been through rehab 3 times now and each time have met SEVERAL other people who have also had WLS and now have developed alcoholism. As a result of what has happened to me since having WLS I have lost my job, my driver's license and am fighting several other legal cases. I would give ANYTHING to return to 300 lbs. and still have my sanity.
I wish there were more support groups and information available regarding this subject because everyday it seems like I meet more and more people with the same problem!! Please let me know if you have any info, research, etc... Or would like to be of support to one another. Thanks!



For the people who gave their lives at Pearl Harbor and all the Veterans that have served our country.. If you can read this thank a teacher and since you are reading it in English thank a Veteran..
That I live in this Great country..
That I am not a Jets fan..
For the lights of my life..
For another day to pay it forward..
Co-Founder
http://www.rydobesity.com
Interview on www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com Please check it out.. http://www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com/programs/wls-journeys/wls-journeys-guest-ramon-lopez.html/
Video, about me, made by my best friend Yvonne.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gCxNTyRUo0
PEACE
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Although I haven't been faithful about posting this I just know that I have so much to be grateful for and I thought I would post today..
Today I am grateful..
For the love and support of my friends..
For a Dallas Cowboy victory..
For the food and company I shared yesterday..
That I have been able to maintain although it has been tough..
For great songs that make you think..
Much love to you all..
Co-Founder
http://www.rydobesity.com
Interview on www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com Please check it out.. http://www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com/programs/wls-journeys/wls-journeys-guest-ramon-lopez.html/
Video, about me, made by my best friend Yvonne.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gCxNTyRUo0
PEACE
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STAND BACK UP BY SUGARLAND
Go ahead and take your best shot,
Let 'er rip, give it all you've got,
I'm laid out on the floor, but I've been here before,
I may stumble, yeah I might fall,
Only human aren't we all?
I might lose my way, but hear me when I say,
I will stand back up,
You'll know just the moment when I've had enough,
Sometimes I'm afraid, and I don't feel that tough,
But I'll stand back up,
I've been beaten up and bruised,
I've been kicked right off my shoes,
Been down on my knees more times than you'd believe,
When the darkness tries to get me,
There's a light that just won't let me,
It might take my pride, and my tears may fill my eyes,
But I'll stand back up,
I've weathered all these storms,
But I just turn them into wind, so I can fly,
What don't kill you makes you stronger,
When I take my last breath,
That's when I'll just give up,
So, go ahead and take your best shot,
Let 'er rip, give it all you've got,
You might win this round but you can't keep me down,
'Cause I'll stand back up,
And you'll know just the moment when I've had enough,
Sometimes I'm afraid and I don't feel that tough,
But I'll stand back up,
You'll know just the moment when I've had enough,
Sometimes I'm afraid and I don't feel that tough,
But I'll stand back up.
Co-Founder
http://www.rydobesity.com
Interview on www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com Please check it out.. http://www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com/programs/wls-journeys/wls-journeys-guest-ramon-lopez.html/
Video, about me, made by my best friend Yvonne.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gCxNTyRUo0
PEACE
464/409/200
Thanks Obesityhelp.com
Co-Founder
http://www.rydobesity.com
Interview on www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com Please check it out.. http://www.weightlosssurgerychannel.com/programs/wls-journeys/wls-journeys-guest-ramon-lopez.html/
Video, about me, made by my best friend Yvonne.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gCxNTyRUo0
PEACE
464/409/200
Thanks Obesityhelp.com