Best response ever!!

I'm bipolar. Surgery hasn't changed anything. I'm still just f*cked up as ever. ;) 

 You poor thing!!! It's probably both... But your job sounds toxic.  Anything you can do about it?  I have a panic disorder for about 15 yrs now.  It sucks... But being proactive and recognizing when there is a problem is the best thing to do... And it sounds like you are taking the right direction going to a psy.  Hang in there and use the atavan in the meantime :)

 yeah, bi-polar and borderline schizophrenic is what I am
I talked to the internalst, and like you said, they are more concerned with the cholesterol and sugars and what not....
She said that everything looks good, just get to meet with their "head" team.  I truly love meeting with head doctors, though this time I want to succeed so, no "head games' from me
I like to analyze there questions....
It sometimes gets tiring being on the end of all the questions, lol
I know they are only doing their job
But that's for the support, its nice to know that there is somewhere I can ask questions too.
Mental health is a disease no different than the overweight disease.
Just wish there was not such a stigmatized on it all the time....  

before my surgey I had occasional panic attacks but post surgery they are getting worse and worse. My job is a huge part of it, I get sick on sunday nights at the thought of going to work the next day. I stay up later and later so that morning doesn't come. I get a sinking feeling when i'm driving into work, my chest gets tight, i feel like I want to cry. I completely despise my job and the high pressure environment of what I do here (sales). I want to run away from it an never look back. I've made an appointment for a psychiatrist I see on the 30th. Did anyone else have symptoms that worsened after surgery? do you think its really my job or is it my hormones making me irrational? I'm taking ativan right now to survive till the psych appt (prescribed by my surgeon after a tearful breakdown in his office)