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You state that you are bipolar I and you are involved with AA. Are you really an alcoholic, or is that the only 12 step available to you?
Sometimes mental health professionals will tell you AA just because the steps and traditions work. If you are still miserable, maybe alcohol is not the issue. I was pointed that way when my problem had absolutely nothing to do with alcohol, but involved other drugs.
12 step programs are not for everybody, just like any other treatment. Find what works for you. I suspect, that like me, you simply need another human being in your life that will be non-judgemental and love you unconditionally.
Being starved for human companionship is probably the most painful feeling a person can experience, especially in a society where it seems everyone is coupled up and the assumption is that everyone has a family. I know it's that way for me.
I keep trying to figure out and fix whatever it is that is wrong with me. I figure it must be me, since it seems everyone else in the world has someone. I and my insurance companies have probably spent hundreds of thousands of dollars over the past several years trying to find that ever-elusive answer.
I'm now trying to learn to accept the unacceptable - aloneness.
I hope things get better for you. Though I don't have any answers, I do understand what you're going through.
HW 405/SW 397/CW 138/GW 160 Do the research! Check the stats!
The DS is *THE* solution to Severe Morbid Obesity!
I can honestly say that I did not inherit the "I am so happy now that I am losing weight" symptom of RNY. lol
I seriously feel just like you have described...I feel as though I cannot function. I am sitting here in bed wearing the same thing for going on the 3rd day! I should take a shower and know that I will most likely feel better afterwards...but the thought of doing it simply put, exhausts me!
I am 7 months post op and yes I am having some serious regrets and wondering how in the hell I was able to pass the Psych evaluation to get the surgery in the first place!
Hi Suzie, thanks for replying. I have been taking venlafaxine 300mgs for a long time now. I was taking that plus citalipram 50 mgs also for about a year. The venlafaxine helps some but not enough to make me function as I should. I just don't have the energy to even shower some days. I don't cook for myself, and put off cleaning and washing clothes as long as possible. I have at times hired a cleaner to come and help out. I have been off work for over 2 years and the thought of going back totally terrifies me, I know I would not last a week, I would be sleeping in and be unable to function. I would get fired. I also have sleep apnea and am waiting to get into the sleep evaluation clinic so they can re-set the power of my cpap machine. The machine helps with energy a little but not enough. Have you found that you are happier after you had your surgery. I expected the surgery to make enough of a difference on my life that this depression would lift. It is still here.
Thanks for sharing your experience with us. I thought that I was the only person that felt this way. I have had more jobs than I can remember and I have felt this way many, many times.
I seriously wanted to drive off of the road just so that I would not have to go to work! I am in the process of going through psychotherapy once a week and getting my medications adjusted...again!
My husband does not want me to look for a new job, I am currently unemployed by choice. I feel guilty for not having an income. My psychiatrist and my therapist have said that I should not be looking for work either. They want me to focus on getting better. I am considering filing for SSDI because I have a very long history of mental illness. For well over 20 years and I was told that because of the chemical imbalance in my brain and my suicidal tendancies that I would most likely be approved.
I hope that you start to feel better.
I felt the same way when it was time for my psych evaluation. Don't stress over it.
The psychiatrist will most likely ask you questions about your health and mental health history, be honest. They will also ask you about the type of WLS that you are going to have. They will ask you if you understand the lifestyle changes, what do you expect your outcome to be after surgery and so on.
They generally want to make sure that you understand the procedure, the reason for the surgery and that you know about all of the changes that you will need to make.
Good luck and keep me posted.
I have recurring major depressive disorder that has been ongoing for well over 20 years. I have tried to commit suicide twice and have been in treatment with therapy and psychiatrists over the years.
I have just recently started seeing a new psychiatrist and I was told that I will need to take medications for the rest of my life because it is genetic and my brain is not balanced chemically.
I have been taking Lexapro 40 mg twice a day which is twice what is recommended per day. My psych doctor has asked me to take only 1 Lexapro 40 mg and a Cymbalta 60 mg for the next week and then the following week I will take 2 Cymbalta 60 mg per day. Hopefully this will help me out.
I had RNY on April 25 2012. I feel that on MOST days that I just cannot get it together which makes me feel guilty which of course, makes me feel worse!
As for how long an "episode" lasts, I do not really have an answer for that. I have been in a really bad funk for about 2 months already and I do not feel as though I am getting any better.
Susie
I have been diagnosed with having a major depressive episode. This has been over 2 years now. It is called an episode so I assume it has an end. How long can these episodes last?
I have not had my consultation yet but I am afraid that they will not do the surgery with my history. I have been on and off meds since i was 13 (27 now). Main issues are severe depression, borderline personality, anxiety, and PTSD. Last dec had a break and was hospitalized and have been up and down since. Did anyone have any problems with their history? Can anyone shed any light on this for me?
Hi everyone. I had WLS 2005 when I was 19. Im now 27. I was diagnosed with Bipolar a few years before that. Today, I see a psychiatrist who prescribes me 300mg lithium 2x a day, 20mg lexapro, 25mg seroquel and 400mg nuerotin 4x a day, Sometimes I take more nuerotin than Im prescribed. This is the only drug I am misusing right now. I am involved with AA, I have a sponsor, go to meetings and preform service. I am still miserable. I just want to get through one day without feeling like dying. Will I ever wake up wanting to live through the day. HELP!
