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Topic: It Works if You Work It!!! Really!!!
I cannot even begin to tell you how grateful I am today to be celebrating not only my five year WLS anniversary but I also picked up my TWO YEAR sobriety chip this morning at my AA meeting. I just wanted to share with anyone out there who doubts their ability to get sober that they CAN do it if they are willing to go to ANY length to get there.
I heard someone share this morning that God can't drive the car if the car is still parked on the side of the road. Wow. What a message....I truely believe that it is impossible to stay sober unless one finds a Higher Power (meaning ANYTHING more powerful than themselves-even members of an AA meeting) that they can turn their care over to and REALLY mean it.
Letting go of trying to control others and even trying to control the outcome of our own futures is self-defeating and impossible. By allowing life to run it's course under the assumption that our only responsibility is to not drink or drug for today only; that a Higher Power will be in control of all else, is such a relief and allows me to concentrate on just me. I finally realilzed that not everyone on this earth was going to like me. Just as I don't like everyone else. It's really none of my business what others think. That's their junk.
Thanks for listening to me share my experience today.
Karen
I heard someone share this morning that God can't drive the car if the car is still parked on the side of the road. Wow. What a message....I truely believe that it is impossible to stay sober unless one finds a Higher Power (meaning ANYTHING more powerful than themselves-even members of an AA meeting) that they can turn their care over to and REALLY mean it.
Letting go of trying to control others and even trying to control the outcome of our own futures is self-defeating and impossible. By allowing life to run it's course under the assumption that our only responsibility is to not drink or drug for today only; that a Higher Power will be in control of all else, is such a relief and allows me to concentrate on just me. I finally realilzed that not everyone on this earth was going to like me. Just as I don't like everyone else. It's really none of my business what others think. That's their junk.
Thanks for listening to me share my experience today.
Karen
Topic: RE: feeling horrible :(
Thanks chickie!
I've been better about my eating for the past week or so, so far. I need to hit the dreadmill today too. Right now I'm off to go food shopping (in the snowstorm)
Hugs,
Marie
I've been better about my eating for the past week or so, so far. I need to hit the dreadmill today too. Right now I'm off to go food shopping (in the snowstorm)
Hugs,
Marie
Topic: RE: feeling horrible :(
Hey Chickie,
My weight gain has been horrible since I first drank in December 2007. I am out of control, just in smaller portions. But, like our recovery with everything else, we must work the 12 steps, and make the Spiritual changes inside of us so that our behavioral changes can come more naturally.
Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and put one foot in front of the other in our journey toward health and freedom.
Love you tons,
Trish
My weight gain has been horrible since I first drank in December 2007. I am out of control, just in smaller portions. But, like our recovery with everything else, we must work the 12 steps, and make the Spiritual changes inside of us so that our behavioral changes can come more naturally.
Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and put one foot in front of the other in our journey toward health and freedom.
Love you tons,
Trish
Seek always to do some good, somewhere. Every man has to seek in his own way to realize his true worth. You must give some time to your fellow man. For remember, you don't live in a world all your own. Your brothers are here too.
Albert Schweitzer
Albert Schweitzer
Topic: RE: feeling horrible :(
Thank you so much Rhonda! I guess I am in that statistic too, and keep forgetting about the "lifelong" part of the journey. I've looked at the glass as half empty rather than half full. Thanks for the reminder!!! :)
Hugs,
Marie
Hugs,
Marie
Topic: RE: feeling horrible :(
I think it's known that there will be a percentage of weight gain after the honeymoon. I know I was in that statistic. I think I got to my lowest of 147 and currently weigh 168i**** goes up and down so much from day to day. I'm 5 years out and battle to maintain constantly. Andddd I live alone.. if I lived in a household were I had to bring food in to feed my family who didn't battle weight.. I'm sure I would probably be back to were I started. *sigh*.. maybe that's God's answered prayer to why I'm still single. .. 
hugss Marie
you're not a failure.. it's a lifelong change and a journey each day to make the right choices. Soooo today is the first day to make the right choice. *muah*
hugss Marie
you're not a failure.. it's a lifelong change and a journey each day to make the right choices. Soooo today is the first day to make the right choice. *muah* It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: RE: Surgery, recovery, dealing with physical pain
Hi Trish.. no whining just voicing your concern hun.. I hope you are doing okay. Keep us updated .. Bigggg Hugssss to you!!
Bigggg Hugssss to you!! It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: ~SPIRITUAL~ A DAY AT A TIME
02-28 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
We're taught in The Program and the Twelve Steps that the chief activator of our defects has been self-centered fear -- mainly fear that we would lose something we already possessed or demanded. Living on the basis of unsatisfied demands, we obviously were in a state of continual disturbance and frustration. Therefore, we are taught, no peace will be ours unless we find a means of reducing these demands. HAVE I BECOME ENTIRELY READY TO HAVE GOD REMOVE ALL MY DEFECTS OF CHARACTER?
TODAY I PRAY
May I make no unrealistic demands on life, which, because of their grandiosity, cannot be met. May I place no excessive demands on others which, when they are not fulfilled, leave me disappointed and let down.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
The set-up for a let-down.
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We're taught in The Program and the Twelve Steps that the chief activator of our defects has been self-centered fear -- mainly fear that we would lose something we already possessed or demanded. Living on the basis of unsatisfied demands, we obviously were in a state of continual disturbance and frustration. Therefore, we are taught, no peace will be ours unless we find a means of reducing these demands. HAVE I BECOME ENTIRELY READY TO HAVE GOD REMOVE ALL MY DEFECTS OF CHARACTER?
TODAY I PRAY
May I make no unrealistic demands on life, which, because of their grandiosity, cannot be met. May I place no excessive demands on others which, when they are not fulfilled, leave me disappointed and let down.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
The set-up for a let-down.
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: feeling horrible :(
I saw my surgeon last week for my 18mo. check up. I GAINED four pounds. This might not seem like a lot, and it really isn't, but I've NEVER had any regain until now. I'm still not great with weight lifting (he suggested I do that immediately) and I've made a half-assed attempt at walking every day. i can't stay motivated....when I don't walk I can't get remotivated to do more. So far, I've walked three times this week, lifted once and figure if I start slowly I'll have a better chance of developing a GOOD habit.
I know I'm beating myself up and am totally devastated that I gained even a small amount so quickly. This is where I'm at and it's not good. I'm depressed, on prozac now, see my shrink on Monday, don't sleep well, am obviously not eating well and am feeling like a failure. I spent a fortune right after my appointment on make-up and perfume, shoes, a bathing suit, jewelry and movies. I need to stop shopping, start walking and eat better. Sigh...Hope everyone else is doing ok.
marie
I know I'm beating myself up and am totally devastated that I gained even a small amount so quickly. This is where I'm at and it's not good. I'm depressed, on prozac now, see my shrink on Monday, don't sleep well, am obviously not eating well and am feeling like a failure. I spent a fortune right after my appointment on make-up and perfume, shoes, a bathing suit, jewelry and movies. I need to stop shopping, start walking and eat better. Sigh...Hope everyone else is doing ok.
marie
Topic: Surgery, recovery, dealing with physical pain
Hi Everyone,
I had sinus surgery 10 days ago, and have had some interesting experiences during my recuperation period. I went into the surgery with a lot of fear about relapsing with my alcohol recovery because of the painkillers. I am also in an Intensive Outpatient Treatment Program for my alcoholism, because of my terrible relapse and being very newly sober.
The first few days after the surgery, I had little physical pain, probably because in addition to my narcotic painkiller, I still had the anasthesia in my system. Then, the pain kicked in, and I was concerned. My sponsor took me to meetings, and kept reassuring me on the phone that I was okay. Then, this week, I thought I was out of the woods. I went to my treatment group on Monday, and then when I got home, I got hit with the most horrific earache I have ever had. I was in tears. I took my painkillers and they did nothing to get rid of the pain. I went to my ENT surgeon for my post-op visit, and he said I had sinus pressure in my ear. He gave me more steroids, which I ran out of after the surgery, and sent me on my way with instructions to irrigate as much as possible.
Well, the earache keeps coming back each day, in the afternoon, and now that I have returned to work, I have been in tears by the end of the workday. Now, I am getting panicky because I am almost out of my painkillers. I don't know if I am panicky because of my fear the pain will hit me again over the weekend, and I will run out of my pills, OR, if I am panicking because I am an alcoholic afraid I won't get my legitimate fix over the weekend.
My plan is to wait and see how things go over the weekend, and if the pain becomes too unbearable, I will go to the emergency room, and get my ear checked out and see what pans out that way.
I can take a lot of pain. I gave birth to two children who weighed 10 and a half pounds at birth, and I did it naturally. I cannot handle the level of pain that ha**** my ear this week.
Sorry to whine. I just had to share where I am at.
Trish
I had sinus surgery 10 days ago, and have had some interesting experiences during my recuperation period. I went into the surgery with a lot of fear about relapsing with my alcohol recovery because of the painkillers. I am also in an Intensive Outpatient Treatment Program for my alcoholism, because of my terrible relapse and being very newly sober.
The first few days after the surgery, I had little physical pain, probably because in addition to my narcotic painkiller, I still had the anasthesia in my system. Then, the pain kicked in, and I was concerned. My sponsor took me to meetings, and kept reassuring me on the phone that I was okay. Then, this week, I thought I was out of the woods. I went to my treatment group on Monday, and then when I got home, I got hit with the most horrific earache I have ever had. I was in tears. I took my painkillers and they did nothing to get rid of the pain. I went to my ENT surgeon for my post-op visit, and he said I had sinus pressure in my ear. He gave me more steroids, which I ran out of after the surgery, and sent me on my way with instructions to irrigate as much as possible.
Well, the earache keeps coming back each day, in the afternoon, and now that I have returned to work, I have been in tears by the end of the workday. Now, I am getting panicky because I am almost out of my painkillers. I don't know if I am panicky because of my fear the pain will hit me again over the weekend, and I will run out of my pills, OR, if I am panicking because I am an alcoholic afraid I won't get my legitimate fix over the weekend.
My plan is to wait and see how things go over the weekend, and if the pain becomes too unbearable, I will go to the emergency room, and get my ear checked out and see what pans out that way.
I can take a lot of pain. I gave birth to two children who weighed 10 and a half pounds at birth, and I did it naturally. I cannot handle the level of pain that ha**** my ear this week.
Sorry to whine. I just had to share where I am at.
Trish
Seek always to do some good, somewhere. Every man has to seek in his own way to realize his true worth. You must give some time to your fellow man. For remember, you don't live in a world all your own. Your brothers are here too.
Albert Schweitzer
Albert Schweitzer
Topic: ~SPIRITUAL~ A DAY AT A TIME
02-27 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
If I live just one day at a time, I won't so quickly entertain fears of what MIGHT happen tomorrow. As long as I'm concentrating on today's activities, there won't be room in my mind for worrying. I'll try to fill every minute of this day with something good -- seen, heard, accomplished. Then, when the day is ended, I'll be able to look back on it with satisfaction, serenity and gratitude. DO I SOMETIMES CHERISH BAD FEELINGS SO THAT I CAN FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF?
TODAY I PRAY
That I will getout of the self-pity act and live for today. May I notice the good things from dawn to nightfall, learn to talk about them and thank God for them. May I catch myself if I seem to be relishing my moans and complaints more often than appreciating the goodness of my life.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Today is good.
If I live just one day at a time, I won't so quickly entertain fears of what MIGHT happen tomorrow. As long as I'm concentrating on today's activities, there won't be room in my mind for worrying. I'll try to fill every minute of this day with something good -- seen, heard, accomplished. Then, when the day is ended, I'll be able to look back on it with satisfaction, serenity and gratitude. DO I SOMETIMES CHERISH BAD FEELINGS SO THAT I CAN FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF?
TODAY I PRAY
That I will getout of the self-pity act and live for today. May I notice the good things from dawn to nightfall, learn to talk about them and thank God for them. May I catch myself if I seem to be relishing my moans and complaints more often than appreciating the goodness of my life.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Today is good.
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
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