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Topic: Feeling stronger...
It's been 11 days of NO shopping for me!! I deleted all my credit card info from QVC online, returned the few things that were in transit, and have not looked at the channel on TV or online at work OR at home. I'm feeling really good about this!! :) My shopping addiction is such a struggle for me...it got way out of control over the past year or two, actually more if I'm honest with myself. I've been watching more baseball on TV and reading to avoid shopping. At work....I've been WORKING! LOL...might actually end up being job security for me. Who knows!? Just an update! How's everyone else doing?
Marie
Marie
Topic: RE: Dreams of suicide?
I know you say you have a history, could a new medication or maybe a medication that needs a dosage change be causing this? Definately call your therapist ASAP.
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Topic: RE: Dreams of suicide?
I have a history of suicide attempts, and I am seeing a therapist.
It's bothersome to think of how contented and happy the thought makes me in the dream, and that there's no pain from slitting my wrists in the dream.
As for the attempts, I have never tried slitting my wrists, it's just too messy. It's not my style, I guess.
I like the idea of oblivion, but not of dying, if that makes any sense at all...
I know it's the depression, and I need to see my psychiatrist again...
It's bothersome to think of how contented and happy the thought makes me in the dream, and that there's no pain from slitting my wrists in the dream.
As for the attempts, I have never tried slitting my wrists, it's just too messy. It's not my style, I guess.
I like the idea of oblivion, but not of dying, if that makes any sense at all...
I know it's the depression, and I need to see my psychiatrist again...
Topic: RE: Dreams of suicide?
I have not.. I'm sorry you are having these dreams. Perhaps if you are really confused by them or they bother you to make you wonder if you would "really" do something like this.. you should talk to a therapist.
altho.. I know I have had disturbing nightmares before and that does not mean I actually wish these nightmares upon myself or others..
altho.. I know I have had disturbing nightmares before and that does not mean I actually wish these nightmares upon myself or others..
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: ~SPIRITUAL~ A DAY AT A TIME
03-15 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
There have been days during my recovery when just about everything seemed bleak and even hopeless. I allowed myself to become depressed and angry. I see now that it doesn't matter what I think, and it doesn't matter how I feel. It's what I do that counts. So when I become anxious or upset, I try to get into action by going to meetings, participating, and working with others in The Program. IF GOD SEEMS FAR AWAY, WHO MOVED?
TODAY I PRAY
May I not be immobilized by sadness or anger to the point of despair. May I look for the roots of despair in my tangle of emotions, sort out the tangle, pull out the culprit feelings, acknowledge that they belong to me. Only then can I get into gear, take action, begin to accomplish. May I learn to make use of the energy generated by anger to strengthen my will and achieve my goals.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
To sort out my feelings.
There have been days during my recovery when just about everything seemed bleak and even hopeless. I allowed myself to become depressed and angry. I see now that it doesn't matter what I think, and it doesn't matter how I feel. It's what I do that counts. So when I become anxious or upset, I try to get into action by going to meetings, participating, and working with others in The Program. IF GOD SEEMS FAR AWAY, WHO MOVED?
TODAY I PRAY
May I not be immobilized by sadness or anger to the point of despair. May I look for the roots of despair in my tangle of emotions, sort out the tangle, pull out the culprit feelings, acknowledge that they belong to me. Only then can I get into gear, take action, begin to accomplish. May I learn to make use of the energy generated by anger to strengthen my will and achieve my goals.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
To sort out my feelings.
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: Dreams of suicide?
I've been drearming for months now about slitting my wrists. It's not something that I think about when I'm awake, or something that I realy think I want to do.
Has anyone else here had recurring dreams of doing harm to yourself?
Has anyone else here had recurring dreams of doing harm to yourself?
Topic: RE: 2 Months of Sobriety
Hi Trish!!
I'm sorry you're not feeling well just yet, but I AM SO PROUD OF YOU for your 60 days!!! That is such a great feeling isn't it?? :) Kol Ha kvod...(all the power to you) :) God bless you girlfriend!
Big hugs,
Marie
I'm sorry you're not feeling well just yet, but I AM SO PROUD OF YOU for your 60 days!!! That is such a great feeling isn't it?? :) Kol Ha kvod...(all the power to you) :) God bless you girlfriend!
Big hugs,
Marie
Topic: RE: 2 Months of Sobriety
bigggg hug Trish... 
that's wonderful news !!
that's wonderful news !!It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: ~SPIRITUAL~ A DAY AT A TIME
TWO FOR ONE TODAY... Yesterdays and todays..
03-13 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
All my life, I looked to others for comfort, security and all the other things that add up to what I now call serenity. But I've come to realize that I was always looking in the wrong place. The source of serenity is not outside, but within myself, The Kingdom is within me, and I already have the key. All I have to do is to be willing to use it. AM I USING THE TOOLS OF THE PROGRAM ON A DAILY BASIS? AM I WILLING?
TODAY I PRAY
God gave me the courage to seek out the kingdom inside myself, to find that well-spring within me which has its source in the never-ending, life-giving river of God. May my soul be restored there. May I find the serenity I seek.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
To see the inner kingdom.
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03-14 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
One thing that keeps me on the right track today is a feeling of loyalty to other members of The Program, no matter where they may be. We depend on each other. I know, for example, that I'd be letting them down if I ever took a drink. When I came into The Program, I found a group of people who were not only helping each other to stay sober, but who were loyal to each other by staying sober themselves. AM I LOYAL TO MY GROUP AND TO MY FRIENDS IN THE PROGRAM?
TODAY I PRAY
I thank God for the loyalty and fellowship of the group and for the mutuality of commitment that binds us together. May I give to the group in the same proportion that I take from it. Having been a taker during so many of my years, my giving used to be no more than a commodity, for which I expected to be paid in approval or love or favors. May I learn the joy of pure giving, with no strings attached, no expectation of reward.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
A perfect gift asks nothing in return.
03-13 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
All my life, I looked to others for comfort, security and all the other things that add up to what I now call serenity. But I've come to realize that I was always looking in the wrong place. The source of serenity is not outside, but within myself, The Kingdom is within me, and I already have the key. All I have to do is to be willing to use it. AM I USING THE TOOLS OF THE PROGRAM ON A DAILY BASIS? AM I WILLING?
TODAY I PRAY
God gave me the courage to seek out the kingdom inside myself, to find that well-spring within me which has its source in the never-ending, life-giving river of God. May my soul be restored there. May I find the serenity I seek.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
To see the inner kingdom.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
03-14 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
One thing that keeps me on the right track today is a feeling of loyalty to other members of The Program, no matter where they may be. We depend on each other. I know, for example, that I'd be letting them down if I ever took a drink. When I came into The Program, I found a group of people who were not only helping each other to stay sober, but who were loyal to each other by staying sober themselves. AM I LOYAL TO MY GROUP AND TO MY FRIENDS IN THE PROGRAM?
TODAY I PRAY
I thank God for the loyalty and fellowship of the group and for the mutuality of commitment that binds us together. May I give to the group in the same proportion that I take from it. Having been a taker during so many of my years, my giving used to be no more than a commodity, for which I expected to be paid in approval or love or favors. May I learn the joy of pure giving, with no strings attached, no expectation of reward.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
A perfect gift asks nothing in return.
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
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