Read my posting of A Day At A Time that I posted today. 

What you are experiencing now I truly believe is a learning of the FIRST STEP.. that YOU have no control over alcohol.  Right now.. you still think you do. 

I too thought I could control it.  I am a binge drinker also.. and the later part of my days.. my binging became more frequent.  I also controlled what I drank and when I drank it.. thinking I had the control.  What I eventually learned is that I am POWERLESS OVER ALCOHOL.  I hope that you learn that too in your journey and find the steps for recovery.

~~hugsss~~

Sorry I've missed posting.  Here is yesterdays and today's reading.  Both are very strong and what I keep telling myself when my mind begins to wonder..   What if..

03/21 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
The Program teaches us that we have an incurable illness.  We always get worse, never better.  But we're fortunate in that our incurable illness can be arrested, so long as we don't take the first drink one day at a time.  Hightoned academic research and ivorytower studies to the contrary, we know from experience that we can no more control our drinking than we can control the ocean tides.  DO I HAVE ANY DOUBT THAT I AM POWERLESS OVER ALCOHOL?

TODAY I PRAY
May I never fall prey to any short-term research results which tell me that alcoholism can be cured, that I would be safe to begin drinking again, supposedly, in a responsible manner.  My experience--and the experience of those in The Program -- will outshout such theories.  May I know that my disease is arrestable, but not curable.  May I know that if I took up my active addiction again, I would begin where I left off -- closer than ever to possible death or insanity.

TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Be wary of new theories.

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03/22 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
Once in a great while, I find myself thinking that perhaps things weren't quite so bad as they seemed to be. At such moments, I force myself to realize that my ILLNESS is talking to me, trying to tempt me into denying that I am, in fact, afflicted with an illness.  One of the key action steps of The Program is that we give our illness to God as we understand Him, accepting our powerlessness in the face of His greater Power.  DO I BELIEVE THAT THE GRACE OF GOD CAN DO FOR ME WHAT I COULD NEVER DO FOR MYSELF?

TODAY I PRAY
May I know that much of our lives depend on faith.  For we cannot know the limits of space and time -- or explain the mysteries of life and death.  But when we see God working through us -- and through others who have found new life in The Program -- it is all the evidence we need to know that He exists.

TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
The Big Wheel runs by faith.



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I am about 70 days sober, and had surgery a month ago.  I had been on the narcotic pain killers for a while due to complications with pain.  This past week, I had an abscess tooth and gum and needed more pain meds.  I now have the urge to get more.  I am really struggling with this, and ashamed of how I feel.  

I am in outpatient treatment and had some dental work on Thursday.  I had nitrous oxide for the work, as it involved some surgery.  Since then I have felt like I am in relapse.  I want more drugs.  I even want to drink.  I did not tell my group on Thursday about the dental work, because I don't know everyone there.  

I just needed to share where I am at.  I need to get to a meeting today.  I am also looking forward to seeing my son today.  He is coming in from New York to participate in a fantasy baseball draft.

Hugs,
Trish

Good Morning OH’ers.. It’s FRIDAY!!

 

Today I am grateful..

 

For another day on earth..

 

For the small things in life..

 

For Starbucks coffee..

 

That I am going to see Homey tonight..

 

For the memories that I have shared with the people on OH..

 

SONG OF THE WEEK

“IF TOMORROW NEVER COMES" BY GARTH BROOKS..

 

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
Shes lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

(chorus)

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That shes my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
cause Ive lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that cir****tance
Where theres no second chance to tell her how I feel

*chorus*

So tell that someone that you love
Just what youre thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

 

MOVIE QUOTE OF THE WEEK..

 

“You did a good thing for a bad man" from A BRONX TALE