I have a lapband and was losing fine for awhile and then it slowed down.   At first I became depressed and didn't eat much and then the weight began to fall off.  So, I kept it up.  I'll go two or three days, sometimes more if I can without eating.  Some days I feel like I have to eat atleast a couple of crackers or so because my head starts to hurt, and I'll get shaky.   I've also begun to take adderall for ADD reasons.  It just so happens that it suppresses my appetite, and helps me go longer without eating.    Except that every few days I'll have a day where I eat a lot...  I generally feel pretty guilty about it, but also think that I can get away with it if I don't eat for the next couple of days, or just eat enough to actually feel it fuel my body. 

A few friends have noticed that I don't eat a lot and have expressed their concern.  I don't feel like I'm doing anything wrong other than I should take more vitamins.  I don't really take any at all right now.  Also I've been doing this for a few months now and so far I'm fine.  Other than some days I feel weak, and I get headaches.

I don't want to be an "anorexic' though, and I feel like the fact that I eat some crackers here and there keep me safe from becoming one.  Plus, I'm still fat and anorexics are underweight. 

Good Morning OH'ers.. It's FRIDAY! !

Today I am grateful..

That I have a smile on my face..

For emails that help the day pass by quicker..

For things looking better..

For an understanding room mate..

For my boy Ruben..

SONG OF THE WEEEK

WHEN I GET WHERE I AM GOING BY BRAD PAISLEY

When I get where I'm going
on the far side of the sky.
The first thing that I'm gonna do
Is spread my wings and fly.

I'm gonna land beside a lion,
and run my fingers through his mane.
Or I might find out what it's like
To ride a drop of rain

(Chorus:)
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
there'll be only happy tears.
I will shed the sins and struggles,
I have carried all these years.
And I'll leave my heart wide open,
I will love and have no fear.
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
Don't cry for me down here.

I'm gonna walk with my grandaddy,
and he'll match me step for step,
and I'll tell him how I missed him,
every minute since he left.
Then I'll hug his neck.

(Chorus)

So much pain and so much darkness,
in this world we stumble through.
All these questions, I can't answer,
so much work to do.

But when I get where I'm going,
and I see my Maker's face.
I'll stand forever in the light,
of His amazing grace.
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
there'll be only happy tears.
Hallelujah!
I will love and have no fear.
When I get where I'm going.
Yeah when I get where I'm going.

MOVIE QUOTE OF THE WEEK..

DO YOU FEEL LUCKY TODAY, PUNK?  CLINT EASTWOOD..

:) Yeah!! I fell asleep for three hours on the couch!! LOL...BEST part is I spent my b-day MY way. Tomorrow is an oil change and physical therapy!!  Then maybe baking cookies to bring to my aunt. Trish, the older I get the more medical issues I have, but the more wonderful I feel about life!! :) WHAT A GIFT!!! 

Hugs,
Marie

Happy Birthday, Marie.  Welcome to the best part of life, the fifties.  I turned 50 about a year and a half ago. 

Sounds like you had a good day.

Hugs,
Trish

What a great day!! It started with the blessing of waking up! And waking up sober!!! I did a few errands, got my eyes examined, (need a new Rx BADLY)...glasses cost a fortune, but hey...my eyes are important! I didn't want to go out for dinner since I don't have much of an appetite. I plan on doing my 2 miles on the dreadmill while I watch some baseball...:)  My kind of day.

I treated myself to some new clothes in Macy's....SIZE 8 PAIR OF JEANS!!! A few pr. of shorts in a size 10 and some tops!! I am feeling wonderful today and thank God for all my support systems and friends who've helped me not lose hope!

Hugs to all,
Marie