Who would have ever thought? After years of battling weight and addiction and the realization that I would never have kids again....Blammy...I'm pregnant!

You believe this **** My husband and I have been trying and being defeated by fate for over 4 years now.

I'm a firm believer, everything happens for a reason. God waited till I was physically and mentally ready for this, and KABOOM here it is. I'm totally excited, ready, and looking forward to getting pee'd on (if we have a boy) in the future.

Baby Lizlo, will be here roughly on or about December 22nd, 2009.

Extremely geeked about this-
Love,
Liz

I was curious as to what eating disorder you have.  First of all, if you are shy of your goal by a few pounds, allow yourself a little more time.  Your anger at yourself won't help you.  I really suspect you may just be having a bad day or a few bad days.

I can only speak from my own experiences.  When I feel depressed (clinically--not just sad), I see everything in a negative light.  I don't see anything good about myself.  I quickly feel hopeless even though I may have been ok a few days prior to that.  Part of my problem is that I slowly slip into depression without noticing it.  Once I do relize it, I panic.  I usually just call my wife.  She tells me that she's not a mental health professional and advises me to call my shrink.  Usually I feel better after my call to her.

This may be your cry for help.  Since you have no profile and no prior posts, I can;t even guess what your problems are.  You will have a difficult time getting help if you don't tell someone what is wrong with you.  If you don't know the term for your condition, at least describe your characteristics.  Being mad at yourself can be because of depression, guilt, or even shame.  Just why are you having your feelings.  Also, getting a book dealing with cognitive therapy may help you.  I suggest that you get the workbook form of  Beck's Diet Solution since it can help you with both your diet and the thinking that goes along with your attitudes towards food and diet.

I don't believe you will be able to take the ER any longer as they don't let you take any meds that are Extend Release- due to time it takes to get into system and through it.  They prefer Reg Depakote which is what I was on, and Rapid Release Tablets are ok like Rapid release Tylenol are ok but Extended release anything wouldn't be.  They will definately adjust your medications, what I mean is they may have to change them so you should be putting in a call and asking what they have planned for this. 

 It was something I set up an appointment just for, as I was on so many medications and a great many were on the list of can't have any more and they were the only thing keeping my pain away, or helping with my arthritis.  So now I am flying solo on the arthritis, and was the back pain until today but we had a new situation come up with the back pain so I had to get the pain patches.

 I am sure your doctors will all worked together for the better you@ Can't wait to see you in six months!

I have not done any inpatient treatment for my alcoholism.  I am currently in an Intensive Outpatient Program.  Have you explored that as an option?  My program started out as three nights a week for two and a half hours each night for 15 sessions, and now it is one night a week for two and a half hours.  It should be about 10-15 sessions.  

I don't know how bad your relapse was, but you may wish to explore it as a possibility.  Either way, you are going to benefit your entire family by getting clean and sober.  You have my prayers.  Feel free to PM me if you like.

Hugs,
Trish

I am probably going to go into a 30 day program next week - I have relapsed  due to memories of a sexual abuse when I was an adolescent resurfacing and this is not the 1st time - I normally just do a 3 day detox and go home - and that clearly is not enough.
I know I need to go, but not sure how I can deal w/ being away from my husband, my children, and my 4 legged children that long.
If anyone here has done it - tell me the secrets - besides keeping in mind that I am going to come home a better wife and mother.