Thank you, I'm glad you enjoyed it.  All of these are simply from a book titled.. A DAY AT A TIME.   It is in date order and I just post what today's reading states.  It's been very nurturing to me and I enjoying posting them.

Today I am grateful..

For day 14..

For a special guest last night.. I love you..

That month end came and went with no issues..

For learning as I go..

For the things that make you go ahhhh..

 My 2 year anniversary was April 17th,  The good news is is that I am 50% of what I weighed at surgery- 287down to 144.  I also no longer have sleep apnea.  I look great.  Cholesteral is under 200.  Now for the bad news.....

However I am hypothyroid, low on iron and low on vitamin D.

I am also having MAJOR problems with anxiety and depression.  I am on meds and they are not helping.

I am on Pristiq 50 mg a day and was upped to 2 x a day May 10th.  Still not helping  Also taking Cytomel for throyoid (hypo) and klonipin but depression and anxiety bad enough that I am in evening IOP program for the next 3-6 weeks.

Anyone have experience-insite to antidepressant/ anti-anxiety meds 2 years out Roux en-Y?

Shel
 

05/31 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
Giving love is a fulfillment in itself.  It must not matter whether love is returned or not.  If I give love only to get a response on my terms, my love is cancelled out by my motives.  If I have the capacity to give love, then any return I get for it is a special bonus.  It is through giving love, freely and without expectations of return, that we find ourselves and build ourselves spiritually.  HAVE I BEGUN TO BELIEVE, IN THE WORDS OF GOETHE, THAT "LOVE DOES NOT DOMINATE; IT CULTIVATES.."?

TODAY I PRAY
May I, the inveterate people-pleaser and approval-seeker, know that the only real love does not ask for love back.  May God be patient as I try to practice this principle.  May I rid myself of pride that throws itself in the way of love.  May I discard my silly cat-and-mouse games that have no place in real love.

TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
I will not give love to get love.

~~~~my goodness.. is this ME or what~~~~ .. people-pleaser.. approval-seeker.. Yep.. ME.  When I don't get back what I give out.. many times I'm left hurt or just a feeling of let down.  Yep.. ME.   Think I'll make TODAY'S PRAYER..  a routine prayer for me for awhile!! and ask for the COURAGE to CHANGE!

actually going off of Seroquel is not an option for me either.  I have been on different medications and these two are the only two that have been found to work for me and not give me adverse effects.  I have been on these medications for about 3 years straight, and they work well.  I have never tried the Tegratol though, I may talk to my Psych about it, Thanks.