06/02 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
In the process of learning to love myself and, in turn, to love others freely with no strings attached, I've begun to understand these words of Saint Augustine:  "Love slays what we have been, that we may be what we were not."  More and more, I feel the enormous power of such love in The Program; for me, the words "we care" also mean "we love."  JUST FOR TODAY, WILL I TRY TO BE LOVING IN EVERY THOUGHT AND ACTION ?

TODAY I PRAY
I pray that I may feel the enormity and the power of the love I find in The Program.  May my own caring be added to that great energy of love which belongs to all of us.  May I care with my whole heart that my fellow members maintain their sobriety and are learning to live with it comfortably and creatively.  May I never doubt that they care the same way about me.

TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Caring makes it happen.

Thank you, I'm glad you enjoyed it.  All of these are simply from a book titled.. A DAY AT A TIME.   It is in date order and I just post what today's reading states.  It's been very nurturing to me and I enjoying posting them.

Today I am grateful..

For day 14..

For a special guest last night.. I love you..

That month end came and went with no issues..

For learning as I go..

For the things that make you go ahhhh..

 My 2 year anniversary was April 17th,  The good news is is that I am 50% of what I weighed at surgery- 287down to 144.  I also no longer have sleep apnea.  I look great.  Cholesteral is under 200.  Now for the bad news.....

However I am hypothyroid, low on iron and low on vitamin D.

I am also having MAJOR problems with anxiety and depression.  I am on meds and they are not helping.

I am on Pristiq 50 mg a day and was upped to 2 x a day May 10th.  Still not helping  Also taking Cytomel for throyoid (hypo) and klonipin but depression and anxiety bad enough that I am in evening IOP program for the next 3-6 weeks.

Anyone have experience-insite to antidepressant/ anti-anxiety meds 2 years out Roux en-Y?

Shel
 

05/31 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
Giving love is a fulfillment in itself.  It must not matter whether love is returned or not.  If I give love only to get a response on my terms, my love is cancelled out by my motives.  If I have the capacity to give love, then any return I get for it is a special bonus.  It is through giving love, freely and without expectations of return, that we find ourselves and build ourselves spiritually.  HAVE I BEGUN TO BELIEVE, IN THE WORDS OF GOETHE, THAT "LOVE DOES NOT DOMINATE; IT CULTIVATES.."?

TODAY I PRAY
May I, the inveterate people-pleaser and approval-seeker, know that the only real love does not ask for love back.  May God be patient as I try to practice this principle.  May I rid myself of pride that throws itself in the way of love.  May I discard my silly cat-and-mouse games that have no place in real love.

TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
I will not give love to get love.

~~~~my goodness.. is this ME or what~~~~ .. people-pleaser.. approval-seeker.. Yep.. ME.  When I don't get back what I give out.. many times I'm left hurt or just a feeling of let down.  Yep.. ME.   Think I'll make TODAY'S PRAYER..  a routine prayer for me for awhile!! and ask for the COURAGE to CHANGE!