Today I am grateful..

That I don't have to tear down others to make myself feel good..

That I have wonderful people in my life..

For a great conference..

For knowing what I am and what I was and wasn't..

For the word yes.. Debra, I love you..

Anyone had any experience withe Risperdal?  I keep readinghorror stories of massive weightgain .  i just started it thursday and have notnoticed anychange inmy hunger or any thing.

09/22 (FIRST DAY OF AUTUMN... ) REFLECTION FOR THE DAY

For a considerable period of time after I reached The Program, I let things I couldn't do keep me from doing the things I could.  If I was bothered by what a speaker or other people said, I retreated, sulking, into my shell.  Now, instead of being annoyed or defensive when someone strikes a raw nerve, I try to welcome it -- because it allows me to work on my attitudes and perceptions of God, self, other people, and my life situation.  We may no longer have active addictions, but we all certainly have an active thinking problem.  AM I WILLING TO GROW -- AND GROW UP?

TODAY I PRAY
May God give me courage to test my new wings -- even a feather at a time.  May I not wait to be entirely whole before I re-enter the world of everyday opportunity, for recovery is ongoing and growth comes through challenges.  May I no longer make desperate stabs at perfection, but keep my arms in sight and develop as I live -- a day at a time.

TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Things I can't do should not get in the way of things I can.

09/21 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
I've heard it said that when God closes a door, He opens a window.  Since I started working the Twelve Steps, much of the fear and pain that haunted my life is gone.  Some of my defects have been lifted from me, though I'm still wrestling with others.  I believe that if I continue to work the Twelve Steps over and over again, my life will continue to improve -- physically, mentally, and spiritually.  AM I MORE WILLING AND BETTER ABLE TO HELP OTHERS BY WORKING THE STEPS MYSELF?

TODAY I PRAY
I give thanks to God for showing me that the Twelve Steps are a stairway to a saner life.  As I re-work them conscientiously, my life does not get better, healthier and nearer to my Higher Power.  As I continue to live them, may I feel the same gratitude and exaltation of spirit as those who are just now discovering them.

TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Step by Step, day be day.

I was molested when I was younger and I do believe it contributed to the weight. I was already chunky back then but my weight grew. We also think something bad happened when I was around 4 or so because I started eating more and became seditary and refused to go back to a baby sitters. I cant unblock my memory of that time, but I do remember that far back. I have a binge eatting problem and there is a group on here that I am apart of called Overcoming Binge Eatting. If thats your problem too, Id join us. It really helps me if I feel the need to binge I can get on there, post and I get tons of support. Well Muchlove and I hope all stays well mentally.