SORRY IT IS A TOUGH DAY.. BE GRATEFUL FOR THE SUN SHINING  AND HOW IT REFLECTS YOUR GOOD HEART AND SOUL!!
HOPE YOUR DAY IS GETTING BETTER.
((HUGS)) LORRIE 

 

Good Morning OH'ers.. IT'S FRIDAY! !

Today I am grateful..

That I have peace in my life..

For control..

For smiles and winks..

That I have a wonderful person in my life that loves and accepts me..

For CB who I absolutely adore.. Thanks for the laughs..

SONG OF THE WEEK

ALL I HAVE TO DO IS DREAM BY THE EVERLY BROTHERS

EVERLY BROTHERS - ALL I HAVE TO DO IS DREAM (1958)
Dream, dream dream dream, dream, dream dream dream
When I want you in my arms, when I want you and all your charms
Whenever I want you, all I have to do, is
Dream, dream dream dream

When I feel blue in the night, and I need you to hold me tight
Whenever I want you, all I have to do, is dream
I can make you mine, taste your lips of wine, any time, night or day
Only trouble is, gee wiz, I'm dreamin' my life away
I need you so that I could die, I love you so, and that is why
Whenever I want you, all I have to do, is
Dream, dream dream dream, dream

I can make you mine, taste your lips of wine, any time, night or day
Only trouble is, gee wiz, I'm dreamin' my life away
I need you so that I could die, I love you so, and that is why
Whenever I want you, all I have to do, is
Dream, dream dream dream (repeats out)

MOVIE QUOTE OF THE WEEK

Another qualude and she will love me in the morning.. Tony Montana in Scarface..

Post Date: 10/21/09 9:54 am
I'm here to confess and to renew my dedication.  Two years out and my pants are getting tight.  I've been abusing alcohol, and my food addiction has reared its ugly head again.  I like to think I was in remission at least for a little while.  As I stay sober and my head clears, I realize that I have been abusing the gift I was given.  This week I recorded my food and realized how much grazing I was doing.  I pulled out the old Barix Bible and re-read Eating for Your New Life.  It seems I've not been following so much of the suggested protocol.  I do get my protein in, but also have indulged in sweets (even though I dump) and in more carbohydrates than necessary or helpful.  I stopped going to meetings (Barix support; Harleysville; Celebrate Recovery) over a year ago.  I won't make it to the Barix meeting tonight because I'm headed to AA, which is where I most seem to need to be right now.  They warn us about this stuff right?  I'm so sorry I didn't keep up with support groups and keep in touch with surgery buddies (except one who I love dearly -- you know who you are).

That's my confession.  Now for my re-dedication.  I promise that just for today I will respect my pouch.  I will not drink alcohol.  I will not eat sugar.  I will get in my protein and water.  I will follow the 5/30 rule.  That's all I can promise for today. 

My future plan is to keep in touch more here and in person.  I'll put next month's meeting on my calendar and commit to being there.  I'll attend the pre-op meeting as well, and stay quiet, to remind myself where I came from.  I'll listen to and accept advice and encouragement.  I'll keep reading "Anatomy of a Food Addiction" and working a 12-step recovery program. 

I'm posting here because I trust you all and know that keeping quiet is the worst thing I could do right now.  I hope my struggles don't cause anyone any grief of their own.  I want everyone to know that life can get off track sometimes, but we have the tools to get it regain ground.  I know several people here are inspirations to me and I look forward to sharing my recovery process.

Today I am grateful..

For NO tickets..

For REAL friends.. Not the type that will turn thier back on you in a time a need, talk behind your back but the kind that will have your back no matter what.. If you are wondering if I am talking about you than I probably am..

That I know I am not perfect I have never claimed to be or will be.. I just want to be me..

For the things that make smile..

For my job..

 The reason that you have to quiit smoking before the surgery is because of risks with breathing under anesthesia, after surgery (gastric bypass) is because you can get ulcers in your surgical connections. I am a year post op and am down from 250lbs to 135, i quit smoking for about 6 months and started again, I am deathly afraid of getting these ulcers, I am quitting next week, I am just afraid i have done damage.
Has anyone had any ulcers from smoking?