Hey Beth,
  sorry to hear you are feeling so down. Your body, and entire system, has just gone through a HUGE trauma. If you were prone to bouts of depression pre-op, then it isn't too surprising you are having a major depressive episode post op. Recovery is slow.
Sounds like  you are on meds. Depending on the type of meds (SSRI'S, tricyclic antidepressants, etc.) you will need them adjusted quite often due to your rapid weight loss that is kicking in. Two months out is still healing period, physically. Add to that the emotional toll that wls puts on us, with hormone flutuactions, changing dietary needs, the toll of malabsorption...good grief...the list goes on.
Now is the time for you to really be mindful of your emotions, and how you are feeling physically. I'm sure you are working closely with your counselor/therapist, probably on some DBT skills? Being mindful of your physiological responses to daily stressors?  It will get better. As your energy level starts to increase (which can take time after surgery...remember...major TRAUMA to  your body), you will start to feel better.  Try to be in a lot of light during the day as well....bright lights (maybe a light box?), and get some movement going.
Work on re-framing your obssessive negative thoughts...there's always a way, and you may just need to brainstorm with someone with whom you feel "safe".
Lastly hon, it is okay to cry. Give yourself pemission to feel these complex and mixed emotions in a safe way. You've are brand new to a life changing journey to better physical health...which, if you put your energy to it, will also lead to better emotional health.  You can do it...

Giant Hugs....
Kathy 

Hi,

Oh my. I hate to shop!  I like to spend.  I think there is a difference.... maybe.  I do the bills so I don't spend like I want.  I hate late bills and hate trying to juggle it all.  Also living in a very rural town with no malls and strip malls, it is easier. However, my laptop just died so there ya go....

I hope you feel better soon. I too have experienced physical pain..I found out I have degenerative disc disorder which makes my legs go numb..sometime while I am driving..Not good combo..I have never heard of bipolar patients and prednisone issues. My daughter has been on prednisone for asthma..and she is bipolar and adhd.

Im glad you recognized the drinking addiction and nipped it in the bud...Great choice getting back into AA. You need to sit down with your sponsor and go over your 12step program..It will make you feel soo much better.

I have had major cross addictions. My new one is shopping for clothes I dont really need. I have been spending money left and right on new clothes. I dont have any tools that have worked. All I think about is going shopping..

I had my RNY gastric bypass surgery October 6th, so I am nearly 2 months out. Ever since I got home from the hospital, I have been in a deep dibilitating depression, filled with anxiety and obsessive negative thoughts. I have had a depression like this before, so I know what it is, but I don't know how to get out of it. I have seen my psychiatrist, and my counselor and we have adjusted my meds several times now trying to find something that works. Has anyone else experienced this? I am crying everyday, and I don't know what to do.. I can't take much more of this! Any advice would be welcomed!