Good Morning OH'ers.. IT'S FRIDAY! !

Today I am grateful..

That it is Friday.. I had a short week at work but I am ready for it to be over with..

That I have a very warm jacket..

That Debra and I will be buying our first Christmas tree together tomorrow..

That I know my tool works..

That I am the man in the mirror..

SONG OF THE WEEK..

Waterfalls by TLC
A lonely mother gazing out of her window
Staring at a son that she just can't touch
If at any time he's in a jam
She'll be by his side
But he doesn't realize he hurts her so much
But all the praying just ain't helping
At all 'cause he can't seem to keep
His self out of trouble
So he goes out and he makes his money
The best way he knows how
Another body laying cold in the gutter
Listen to me

[Chorus]
Don't go chasing waterfalls
Please stick to the rivers and lakes that
You're used to
I know that you're gonna have it your way
Or nothing at all
But I think you're moving too fast

Little precious has a natural obsession
For temptation but he just can't see
She gives him loving that his body can't handle
But all he can say is baby it's good to me
One day he goes and takes a glimpse
In the mirror
But he doesn't recognize his own face
His health is fading and he doesn't know why
3 letters took him to his final resting place
Y'all don't hear me

[Chorus]

I seen a rainbow yesterday
But too many storms have come and gone
Leavin' a trace of not one God-given ray
Is it because my life is ten shades of gray
I pray all ten fade away
Seldom praise Him for the sunny days

And like His promise is true
Only my faith can undo
The many chances I blew
To bring my life to anew
Clear blue and unconditional skies
Have dried the tears from my eyes
No more lonely cries
My only bleedin' hope
Is for the folk who can't cope
Wit such an endurin' pain
That it keeps 'em in the pourin' rain
Who's to blame
For tootin' caine in your own vein
What a shame
You shoot and aim for someone else's brain
You claim the insane
And name this day in time
For fallin' prey to crime
I say the system got you victim to your own mind

Dreams are hopeless aspirations
In hopes of comin' true
Believe in yourself
The rest is up to me and you

MOVIE QUOTE OF THE WEEK..
FROM SURFS UP

Tank Evans: A role model? No. But I do consider myself somebody that everyone should look up to. Kids should try to pretend that they're Tank. I mean, they should try. Good luck, kids! 

I'm new to this site and have just found this mental health forum.  What I'm seeing is great and looks like what I need.  I am 4.5 years of of RNY and lost 100 lbs.  Felt great and then had a baby 15 mos ago.  Never would have had my bearcub had it not been for the surgery - I waited 40 years to have a baby and he's the best thing in my world.  I still have 35 extra lbs from the pregnancy and feeling like a complete failure because of this.  Had I not had the surgery I would not have gotten with my partner of 4 years as I know his preferences and I he would not have pursued me.  So, now with this 35 lbs I feel unattractive to him - he says it is noticable but look what we have out of it all and that he continues to love me.  But, I still know his preferences.  So - depression cycles are in full swing.  Going back to old eating habits, feeling guilty/shame for doing so, even less motivation to get going again, and then more old eating habits.  I really need some help on getting going again.  I'm on antidepressants (for years) and seeing a therapist.  However, my therapists advise was to 'just do it'.  I'm trying to figure out how to talk myself into motivation over the continual negative self talk and feelings of failure.  I know what to do physically - how do I get my mind to catch up and get moving again? 

Thank you for replying!!! I am deff gomna send you a pm! :-). You asked about a tramatic experence, well I am 24 and I lost my mom 5 years ago to cancer. Last year my best friend was murdered my a drunk driver, who doesn't remember hitting her! :-( its beem a tuff couple of years. (I am on my black berry at the moment but tomorrow I will send you a pm and explain more). But any info or insite is deff welcome! I need all the support and friends I can get, esp somebody who is facing the same things!!! Thanks again, Jessica

Chapter 40 - A repeat of Chapter One.
Sitting alone at the bottom of the hole
Not believing I fell in again.
I look up and see a friend
I yell up "Be Careful or you will fall in also"
The friend jumps in anyway
I say "Are you crazy! Why did you do that?"
Friend says "I could see you had fallen in again and are having trouble"
Friend says "Don't worry, I know the way out"

Happy Hump Day..

Today I am grateful..

For a warm place to stay..

For food in my mouth..

For the air in my lungs..

For dinner with Sean and Debra..  BTW guys when a woman says she is thirsty it doesn't mean she wants a glass of water..  I know it is confusing but we have to learn things like that..

For being me..