Guilt, remorse.

I'm having trouble sleeping due to guilt and remorse over having a relapse several weeks ago. I think the family has lost their faith in me, despite me being in AA for 10 1/2 years. Guess they can't really understand that I'll never be cured or safe from that first drink. It was hubby, after all, who bought the beer! After all he's been through! My sponsor said I should tell my Mom, I did, and now the whole family knows about it and thinks I'm a loser. What a drag. Oh well, pity pot won't serve me. I have to sleep eventually and my confidence will be renewed with continued sobriety. Hey, I managed to lose 215 pounds over 3 years due to diligence and have kept it off for 2 additional years. I hope to God I'll never regain, but who can tell? The most I can do is persevere, one day at a time. Vicki