This Sooo Sucks!

Hello to the WLS post ops I most have ANYTHING in common with........ Why is it that the commonality of being fat causes me to think we are all 'nice' people? Why is it that the commonality of having WLS gives us a "bond"? Yah right! It means nothing more than the fact that we have been sliced and diced - that is about the only commonality I can find on any board other than this one. On this board, I read about the confusion and pain of cross addiction....now that is a commonality. How are you doing with it??? I could just sit here and cry right now.......NO, I'm not drinking again...I've been sober 28 days now......after a 7-month binge. (Hey Lisa, how's it going for you??) I think this is a great board and it would be a good thing if we came here more often and chatted a little more about this.......kinda' like a meeting online?? I sit here, sober, eating healthy, drinking my water, having lost 7 pounds of a 10-pound Mike's Hard Lemonade weight gain, healthy and working out every stinkin' day and I want to cry. What's that about? I'm supposed to be happy right? I mean I used to weigh 380 pounds, and now I only weigh 159. I am a cute size 10 and I used to be a miserable size 5X. I am sexy, funny, pretty and intelligent.... .....LOLOLOL..... and I want to cry... I've run the gamut of all of the addictions......and now am revisiting the one that kicks my butt the most......a man. So, tell me please.......talk to me.......I get lonely for my kind..... I guess I better take my hiney to an AA meeting just to talk to someone that will totally understand. Why does it have to suck so hard sometimes??? Jeannie The Stubborn

Jeanie, I am right there with you the 12 steps saved my life and all of us addicts know alcohol (or in my case drugs) isn't the problem. I am always happy to talk with those whose roads of addiction all came together as a horrible wreck because as addicts there were no stop signs at least none we were willing to see. If you need someone to talk to know I'm here and more than willing to share experience strength and hope to help you through. Much love and understanding. Liss

Dayam girl, you have surgery in 3 days??? J

Heloooo woman.... Good to see you again... remember your achilles heel and your finest strength are often built of the same stuff... in your case, I am thinking that "Jeannie the Stubborn" may say a little more than even you realize. It can be your "pathway to destruction" or your "finest step to glory" - hang in there - it is time to be stubborn and not give up.... just hold on. Just saw an author on Oprah.... "a million little pieces" i think the book was entitled... it was on the bookclub... might be helpful. Love you B

Oh Jeannie, I can so relate! I "somehow" got to 370, one beer or crystal light/vodka at a time. I know float between 155-165 at 5'10", size 10. I, too, am pretty, funny, intelligent...and the sexy part will come as I build up some sober time. I haven't run the gamut, "just" food and alcohol, but they both kicked my butt so hard, I probably didn't have the energy to try anything else! Anyway, a small part of my relapse is due to me being dependent on my M-F 6am meeting in California. We've just moved to Austin and I'm having trouble finding a group I can call home and a time that works for me. Now that I've found this board, I'm going to USE it. Hopefully, I can help others but, who's kidding who? I'm here for myself to try to reclaim my life. What the heck use was losing 200+ pounds if I'm going to drink myself to death? Vicki

Well Hello!!! Good to see you here. This board is not very active obviously. I've been sober since July 4 and that tiny relapse was the best thing that could have happened to me! Awww Vicki, I'm glad to hear you lost your crutch of the meeting. Why?? I'm glad because now you are challenged to grow beyond that crutch and stand alone, beefing up those independent muscles that will manifest in the real Vicki sans anyone or anything. Will the real Vicki please stand up!!! I can so relate to where you are. I can also tell you that I am thrilled to be where I am, continuing to challenge myself in life and push my envelope, living life to its fullest. When I do this, living rigorously honest and with authenticity, who the hell needs booze? Reality is a trip in and of itself! I sooo do not need anything else...this is a roller coaster all by itself! WAHOOOO I'm as close as e mail! Jeannie xoxoxo