How Humbling Can It Get???

It's four months since I posted that, and your response caused me to read it agai! Thanks. I'm still sober and getting more sober every day. I am not beating myself up over that. Actually, I happen to agree with you 100%. I sat around the tables for a long time drinking the nasty coffee and breathing the smoke from the chain cigarettes burning...and left there scared to death I would fail. "Going out" was the most horrible thing that could happen to me!! I believed that with all my heart. Today, "going out" was the best thing that happened to me. I'm very grateful I have not had to do it again however. I admire my years of sobriety too. Thanks again. If you ever want to introduce or "talk" just e me.... [email protected] J

Jeannie, Jeannie, Jeannie, We are sisters. I have 7 days today after 10 1/2 years in the program. I'm already sick of asking myself why (because we're alcoholics and it's the insanity of the disease, duh). Now I'm figuring out how. Well, with our AA experience, we know what we have to do, so we're one step ahead on that score. Now we just have to do it, like they say, gag!, one day at a time. I have a hard time when hubby rags on me or when the kids won't stop bickering (they're 11 and 12 and have been "in the program" attending meetings with me since they were infants. I can hide nothing from them). I may post a lot on this board in the near future, but I am grabbing onto that lifering and not letting go! I want my serenity and self-esteem back! Vicki

Vicki, Your serenity and self esteem never left......you just turned around for a minute. It's right there. Just step back into it. You will and are. It is amazing to me that something I experienced months ago would show up in my In Box this early morning....... I just met a new friend in Austin. It's a good thing there are many miles between me and your fair city! LOL! They certainly grow them beautiful in Texas! Hope you have a day filled with grace in knowing how special you are and that you deserve every little ounce of love you can generate for Vicki today. I'm lighting the candle on my "little altar" on my desk for you now darlin'... Jeannie thanks again you validate my existence and my experience...and you assit me in being about my Father's work xoxoxo