have you ever

been ashamed to go the a support group mtg since
anything you may say will seem like you are whining
people will cringe when you speak
it seems like it is ALL negative coming out of your mouth

people dont associate w you since the negative energy  around me enters the room before me

i stopped going to support mtgs since

i am unemployed
am having stomach issues probably related to stress
i dont exercise
i dont belong to a gym
i dont eat well since i dont have the money (eating healthy is not cheap)

no health ins and being turned down or priced out for all possible avenues suggested
fearful of posting to the internet since i am lkng for work
it was on an application "What networks / networking sites do you belong to?"
not sure what to do w myself since almost everything i try to strategize to do doesnt work.
trying to stay positive and focus BUT

didnt mean to rain your your parade too but wanted to voice my mind

thanks for reading
 

Cecelia,
I am sorry you are feeling so poorly.  Sounds like it's awful hard right now for you to find any positive in your life.  Life can really s**k sometimes.  For all the reasons you state that you can't go to a support meeting are the exact reasons why you need the support!!   I DO hear you, honestly, I do.   As rotten as you feel you need to find something, anything, to be grateful for and focus on that.   I know you probably know that and don't even want to hear it but you need to fight back and only you can do that for you.  Sometimes others just feel so helpless to help a person so down.  I hear you when you say that your misery goes in the door before you do.   All you can do is be honest.  Someone will listen to you and maybe be able to help.

Just know that you are not alone.  I wish you the best and I hope life gets better for you real soon.

thank you. . .