Struggling

I am about 70 days sober, and had surgery a month ago.  I had been on the narcotic pain killers for a while due to complications with pain.  This past week, I had an abscess tooth and gum and needed more pain meds.  I now have the urge to get more.  I am really struggling with this, and ashamed of how I feel.  

I am in outpatient treatment and had some dental work on Thursday.  I had nitrous oxide for the work, as it involved some surgery.  Since then I have felt like I am in relapse.  I want more drugs.  I even want to drink.  I did not tell my group on Thursday about the dental work, because I don't know everyone there.  

I just needed to share where I am at.  I need to get to a meeting today.  I am also looking forward to seeing my son today.  He is coming in from New York to participate in a fantasy baseball draft.

Hugs,
Trish

Hey Trish - How did yesterday go? I did not check out this board as we were in town most of the day and I was trying to enjoy my last few days w/ my son before he heads back to college.

My thoughts are w/ you - remember - sometimes we have to take it minute by minute....

Thanks dear,
I did make it without a drink.  I called my sponsor and went to a Beginner's Meeting.  I was also busier than heck. 

Thanks for the encouragement.

Hugs,
Trish

~~~hugsss Trish~~~

thanks for sharing hun.. Hope you were able to get to a meeting.  If you get the chance read today's posting of A Day At A Time.

I know for myself .. some times my mind will say.. I wonder if I can control it.  I then know from reading experiences of others.. that it's my sickness talking and I'm scared and I don't want to go back to where I was..  so I don't take that first drink. 

hang in there sweetie.. a day at a time.. or a minute at a time!!

Hi Rhonda,
Thanks for replying.  It is not easy, but it is doable.  I did get to a Beginners' Meeting and shared.  I am busy and staying that way.

Gonna make another meeting this afternoon.

Hugs,
Trish