My Weekend

I did good this weekend. Resisted the drink at a party Saturday night, hiked 6 miles yesterday and when I weighed in this morning I'm down 7lbs from a couple of weeks ago.

I gained back about 30lbs from my lowest and I know it's due to the fire water. I can't eat that much and for the past three years (surgery 4 years ago) I've hit the sauce pretty hard. I guess I am just so lonely I need that escape into false euphoria to mask what I am feeling being so lonely. So now I am reading voraciously and knitting and crocheting all the time. I need something to take up all that boredom in my life.

Wow, I'm needy.

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Have you tried adding AA meetings into your schedule?  I'm lonely too, but it helps if I have a meeting to look forward to.

Just a thought.

Congrats on the weight loss.  I'm still fighting to keep my weight off....and I never made it to goal weight.  Good for you for getting back up on the exercise horse!

I ditto Darlene's suggestion to attend AA meetings.  Not only can you learn how to get and stay sober, but it can kill the loneliness excuse big time.

Hang in there.  There is hope.

Hugs,
Trish

I know lonliness isn't any excuse, but it's very real and there in my life.

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Dee,
I am so sorry.  As I reread my post, I see that what I said was not what I meant to say for you.  I apologize. 

I am fully aware that loneliness is very real and can be extremely painful for some of us.  I have been so lonely in the past seven years, it is not funny.  My husband left me in 2001, and all my kids moved away within a few months of his filing for divorce.  They moved because as young adults, they had their lives to live and geography took them to other cities in the country.  That was in 2001, and I had been in a previous relapse at that time.  I finally did get sober in September of that year, and scratched and clawed my way through my first year of sobriety. 

After a few years with one son moving home with me, and then kicking him out because he would not give up the heroin in spite of several rehabs and an arrest, and another son moving home for a while after graduate school, I found myself alone again.  It sucked big time.  I tried dating, unsuccessfully, and eating myself to weight loss surgery.  In therapy I am constantly whining about my loneliness. 

I guess when I replied using the word excuse, I was speaking more to myself than anything.  I have used loneliness as an excuse, in addition to a lot of other things, in my relapses. 

Please forgive me if I hurt you.  That was not my intent. 

Do try to get to an AA meeting.  There is a lot of help, hope and love in the AA rooms for all of us who struggle with alcoholism.  The people in the AA meetings truly understand everything we have talked about on this particular forum.  And many of them definitely understand loneliness.

Hugs,
trish