how do i even go about getting help?

Ok how can I even try to tell you ..But I drink alot more then 10 ounces of vodka a day. And let me tell you I have gain 30 pounds back because of my drinking and like you I dont want to stop either but I know I have too and havent yet. I just pray that I will one day. girl you are a lawyer and you are smart . I hope everything works for you. But if you feel like me i feel there is no help no where near yet just praying every morning that I wont take that drink. I have posted in here only once which was a long time ago I just read everybodys post. Hoping that one day I can get motivated to stop. You post was just to close to home for me. You are in my prayers as much as I am in them too.