Why can I

I have two days a week off and I act like an ass I drink usually or just dont do anything.  On my working days I am responsible and on the ball and my husband is really pissed about this.  I understand I feel like I am blowing off steam I dont know any more Help

in MO.. YOU can do anything you want..  

The only requirement in AA.. is the desire to not drink.  YOU have to want that yourself in order to quit. 

So.. what is it that YOU want?

Because without the job you couldn't get the booze so a job is usually higher priority than anything other than the booze.  Therefore your family falls below those 2 in your priority.

When you decide you want to behave responsibly and soberly those two days, and change your day off behaviors, there is help available for you in AA.  Until then, you will keep doing what you are doing, probably expecting a different result each time. 

Instead of blowing off steam, why don't you try an AA meeting.  I am also learning self-soothing techniques to avoid the need to blow off steam.  It is possible to relax without alcohol.