I am tired

I am so tired of being me.  I am tired of being alchoholic.  I know I am and accept it.  I know I am because I am depressed.   I do not know exactly why I am depressed.  I am tired of people trying to help but being put out or tired themselves.  I am sorry yes I am powerless yes I am I am Iam.  Uggg bad day full moon... lady time rant., wanna cry.  I am tired of being treated like a child yet I know why they do it.  I am tired of them asking how I can act like I have done nothing wrong and trying to explain that that is all I can do to keep going.


I am tired

Matilda,
I can relate to what you wrote.  I have felt as you do many times.  The good news is, there is hope for you, if you want to get better.  I got sick and tired of feeling sick and tired, and stopped drinking and went to AA.  Have you been to AA?  If not, I suggest you get there, and start working the 12 Steps and sharing with people what is happening.  You will find rooms full of people who have felt as you do. 

Hang in there.

Hugs,
Trish

Oh sweetie I just want to reach through this computer and give you a hug!  I will be praying for you.  I have never suffered with alcohol but my father did and I know how it can ruin your life.  I am an addict though and I know how hard it is.  I am addicted to food and shopping.  I also think that if I let myself I would be addicted to other things.  I really don't have any words of wisdom for you but I do want you to know that you can do anything through Christ who strengthens you.  You can do this!  Much love and God bless, Penni