Internet Withdrawal

I just got done 9 days of internet/cable TV withdrawal.  I pray I never have to do that again.  UGH.  I missed you guys terribly.  I felt so lost without my connection to you all, and my other support people.   My recovery has been good.  I have been making my AA meetings daily for over a week.  I have 26 days of sobriety, and I am grateful for that.   My therapy has been going interestingly.  My therapist is using my last relapse to really drill home with me my entitlement attitude that I was barely aware of till now.  I have an attitude that says if life does not go my way, I am entitled to eat, drink sex, flip out, act out, cut, or whatever I feel like it, and you all can just deal with it.  When he confronted me with that attitude, I felt disgust and remorse.   At my last session, he confronted me about my spirituality.  I have faith, and belief in God, but do not apply it when push comes to shove, especially in my therapy/recovery.   So, these are the things I am working on these days.   I am done the school year, but am now working at the psychiatric hospital part time.   Huggles, Trish

I'm so happy for YOU..  your post sounds so much better AND happier than when you are in your relapse.  Also it sounds like you have a very good therapist..  tells it like it is.. sometimes (all the time) we really need that. love you

Thanks Rhonda, It is good to be sober and loving life again.  I also am grateful for my kick-ass therapist, who shoots from the hip and takes no prisoners.  He and I have been butting heads, or working together on my mental health, for 19 years, pity the fool.  As the Big Book says, "some are sicker than others..." Huggles, Trish