screaming mad help
you will be in my prayers hun..
dont' be too *afraid* to talk to them.. they only want to help you.
here is the Serenity Prayer.. and I OFTEN repeat this first paragraph whenever I am struggling. It really has helped me many many times. Feel free to borrow it as often as you need it..
http://www.cptryon.org/prayer/special/serenity.html

It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin