Waving the White Flag

OK y'all. I picked up a white chip Saturday night.  I'm back. I ended the relationship with the bf - I'd become his mother and he'd become my drinking buddy.  It was starting to look a lot like the marriage I ended all those years ago. I'm very angry with myself, sad, and remorseful and humble, BUT - I gave myself one pity day and that was yesterday, and hey I didn't feel like crying when I got up today, so that's a good thing. Hey does anybody do myspace or facebook?  wanna add me?  (www.myspace.com/crazeegeekchick) I've missed you guys, Michelle

Hi! I'm Jill, a recovering alcoholic! I am just new to this forum, but was sure happy to find it. Sounds to me like you are doing the next right thing!  Glad to meet cha!

Michelle!!! You've done an amazing thing for your recovery!! :)  Good for you! It's nice to see youposting again!!! Marie (missed you!!)

I missed you guys too - soooo much :)

I'm sorry Michelle...  just FYI Dan and I are no longer together either.  He moved back to WI on Thursday.. just one too many relapses than I wanted to handle I guess.  I know it's hard letting go.. Welcome home

Thanks Rhonda.  It *is* hard letting go.  Now I get to deal with a broken heart *AND* early sobriety all at once.  Oh joy :-) I just got home from the Monday night meeting - it was a good one.  Everybody in my home group was so so so so kind to me Saturday night when I showed up and got my chip.  Everybody is still being uber sweet - including my sponser.  You guys truly *ARE* home. I feel like the prodigal child.  LOL   Oh what a bozo am I.  But it's good to know that I'm not alone in my bozo-ness ;-) Love you guys, M

oh no.. you are not alone ever.  You can share with us and assure us that we don't want to *test the waters*.. you can assure us that the grass is greener on the sober side  after Dan left... I had my first dream(nightmare) that I wanted/needed a drink  I hated that feeling.. sometimes I wonder if he's the reason I WAS able to stay so strong in not drinking... pure stubborness LOL.. but I'm not going backwards now..

Glad your back.  I miss your posting. DarDar