hi

I hate to say this, but I slipped, I ****** up, 2 glasses of wine, enough to throw away 4 months of hard work. For those of you following my lead, I apologize I let you down. For you emailing me claiming me to be some inspiration, I apologize to you.

All I want to do is Drink a whole entire bottle of merlot. 2 if I knew I could make it from my couch to my bed.

I start my house arrest for my 2nd dui on January 7th.

I've been having health issues, finally came to the answer to that.

Please pay attention, this is no joke, this is no story time.

------taken from family and friends board in a post to Rhonda--------------

Final word on my insides is pancreitis(sp).

That means, change in diet and absolutely no alcohol. Hahahahah....Go f'in figure eh?

So for you people out there who do or are in the process of switching addictions to alcohol.....just remember our insides are not the same as regular people.

http://www.medicinenet.com/pancreatitis/article.htm

It's not a game, it's not fun, it doesn't solve our problems, if anything it makes our problems worse.

Leading cause of pancreatitis-alcohol. high protien, not enough carbs.

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Go ahead, read the website, read what alcohol really does to your pancreas. meanwhile I thought my liver, my liver, my gallbladder. HA!




I can not stress enough my apologies, and I can not stress enough that this **** is not a joke. Alcohol can and will kill you if you don't stop ****** around.


(excuse my ignorant language)

Thanks so much Lizzie for putting this out here like this..  I know you didn't have to get thyself to a meeting.. don't let the slip turn into a relapse.. and I love ya girlfriend!!! keep cummin back it works if you work it.. and not to take your inventory.. but I've missed you on this board lately.  And some others....

Welcome back.

You didn't throw away 4 months of hard work. Nothing can take that away from you. You haven't forgotten what you've learn. That's the good news.

Bad news is you have to walk through the cravings and obsessions brought on by putting the alcohol back in your body.

Best news....you know you can do it.

No apologies necessary. None of us are in a position to judge. Pancreatitis is just ONE of the many evils of this disease.

You never have to drink again.

Love, Karen

Relapse is part of recovery.This is a quote from my NA text,"There is something in our self destructive personalities that cries for failure.Most of us feel that we do not deserve to succeed.This is a common theme with addicts.Self Pity is one of the most destructive of defects;it will drain us of all positive energy.We focus on anything going wrong and ignore all the beauty in our lives.We must relearn many things we have forgotten and develop a new approach to life if we are to survive."  This is a time when you need a program of recovery the most.

Hi there, I feel your pain, there was no way I could kick my addiction to wine by myself.  I tried and tried, 6 months of the worst misery of my life, but instead of getting better I was getting worse.  After I admitted I needed help, I went to a short term detox and went under the care of a wonderful addiction specialist.  Now I take a "****tail" of addiction drugs, antabuse, naltrexone, and lexapro.  This "****tail" has saved my life, it's like a switch has been turned off or on.  I realize I am certainly not out of the woods and this will be a daily struggle for the rest of my life, but getting help was the best thing I could do.  Hang in there and don't beat yourself up, we're all just doing the best we can one day at a time. Carol

You did something amazing and courageous, hon. We're all human.  I agree with Rhonda! The meetings work for you...the program works if you work it! I've missed seeing your posts too!  I've been looking for you and Trish, and heard from you both now!   Look, this one slip will NOT define your life. You'll deal with this, and the house stuff starting in January because you're made of stronger stuff than our disease!  If you need me I'm here.  And I will always be proud of you!  :) You're angry and disappointed in yourself now, but that will be replaced with renewed strength before you know it! Love, Marie

Hey Sweetie, I love you, and feel bad that I have not been around to support the group.  I understand slips, as I was the queen of them at one time in my earlier days.  Key thing to a slip is that it stay a slip and not become a full blown relapse.  You have the tools you need, in AA and in your personal program.  Use them for all they are worth.  As you said yourself, the alcohol will kill you. Get to your home group, put your hand up and share your slip.  Be brutally honest.  If we are not brutally honest about our disease, the alcohol will be brutal with us.  I prefer to be honest rather than let the alcohol do it to me. Hang in there.  Learn from the slip.  Self-examine your triggers and your program to see where you need to fine tune things.  Write out a drunkalogue on your entire drinking history, and include your feelings that went with your drinking, before, during and after.  That helped me tremendously. Hugs, Trish