Tired of the pain

I have been on antibiotics for a sinus infection for almost two weeks now.  My ear is starting to hurt again, like it did a week ago.  I saw my family doctor on Monday and he said I still have fluid in there.  Today, it really started to hurt like H***.   Add to this my squirrely feelings from therapy.   Then, I did not mention that I saw a lawyer on Monday because I plan to file for bankruptcy.  I am drowning in a sea of debt, and it the end is not in sight.  I left his office feeling like such a huge f*** up about my shopping addiction and inability to resist temptation.  The shame I have is just overwhelming.   So, I have been in a funk, and sinking deeper as each day goes by.   I hate where I am at.  I don't see it getting better. Hugs, Trish

You're not alone.  I don't have a shopping addiction, per se, but I tend to "throw away" my money, mostly to my children.  I JUST started tithing in obedience, but I admit that I'm doing that out of desperation that God will make sure that I have what I need and that I will learn to trust Him.  Please think about coming with me to Celebrate Recovery next Tuesday.  E-mail me.  And I hope that by the time you read this, your ear is feeling much, much better.

I hate when I want to respond and offer hope.. and encouragement.. but they seem to be just words on a screen, when someone *like yourself* is strugglingwith just plain ole life situations.  I wish so much to actually beable to reach thru the monitor and give you a big ole' hug.. and to actually talk to you... hell I would even sit down and cry with ya if you wanted. Hang in there Trish.. *these words seem like nothing*, but I mean them with ALOT of loveI'll most certainly mention you in my prayers these next few days..

Trish, We've hit rough patches before. I KNOW you will come up out of this one too. The bankruptcy might be the best thing for you in the long run. There is a lot to be said for the peace of mind that creditors won't harass you. But before you file, are you absolutely sure its' the only answer? What about consumer credit counselling? It's certainly another option for you to investigate. I'm not too sure about how it works, but its 'on the same basic principle as filing chapter 13, except there is no permanent mark on your credit history. You pay off your debt slower in a manageable monthly sum.  It can't hurt to check it out.  I hate to see you this upset. I can imagine how much this is hurting you. If you need to talk, I'm here.  Cell: 781-956-3852 Hugs, Marie