Really Tough Therapy Session

Morning Trish

IMO.. I think it's good that you feel vulnerable and raw right now..  it's a new feeling and like a baby learning you can take that feeling and start anew.. or act out and keep living the insanity.  I read this morning today's passage from Courage to Change.. One Day at a Time in Al-Anon II.. it said: "Insanity has been defined as doing something the same way over and over again and expecting different results.  " WE HAVE ALL HEARD THAT ONE BEFORE.. SO.. I would think that if you take these new emotions.. and reacted *differently* to those feelings.. like embrace them.. love them.. cry.. be glad you feel that way.. treat it as a way of healing... you may get different results than what you have been doing.   If you weren't where you were.. you wouldn't be the awesome person you are now.  Who's able to share your experiences and actually help others with their lives.  So be thankful of being a ACoA because it can make YOU a person who can have humility and help others.  AND YOU DO.. If you take the emotions your feeling and react the same way..as you had been .. over and over.. *well as it stated* you are getting the same results.. and it's insane.  The passage also reminded us of Step Three.. ""Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of Gad as we understand him," was a turning point for me in relinquishing control.  It meant choosing between an insane life and a sane one--- my will or God's will.  Since my will had let me down time and time again, the real question was how long would I continue running around in the same circles before I was willing to admit defeat and turn to a source of genuine help? " also a quote from AS WE UNDERSTOOD.. "Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new end." I know we both are alcoholics.. but we also have loved one who are/was.  I thought this passage was really talking to me this morning.  As I have a character flaw of control..  and have to learn to let go of it.  So it gives us BOTH something to work on.. going back to step 3 and turning it all over to God. Hugsss with LOVE